yay!.. went out wit jon, shaf, zahh, my mum n me.. yeah, we went out at ard midnite.. it's great to hang out at ard midnite.. mayb dat's y ppl like goin to town n other places when it's reli2 late.. cos it's kinda peaceful.. parents shud start understanding u noe... *winkz*

anw, we met each other at harbourfront cos jon was working til 11.. then we took 143 to cineleisure.. we ate at long john silver.. then sumting reli funny n stupid happened there.. we saw a couple of ppl making a fools outta themselves.. dat was reli a gd amount of entertainment.. rite guys?.. *grins*.. after eating, which was ard 12.30am, we went up to buy movie tix.. guess for wat movie.. AQUAMARINE!!.. yeah, it's the movie dat i've been waiting for cos it's starring Jojo.. lol.. after buying the tix, we didn't go far.. instead, we went to play at the arcade bside the ticketing counter.. those who always go to cineleisure shud noe.. we played racing n the other ting.. sumting like hand hockey.. or wateva dat's called.. for 4 ppl to play.. we had a hell of a time there.. it was reli funny.. jon did sumting reli funny.. lol.. all of us laughed non-stop!.. then after we played for wat seems like only a period of short time, but actually it had been abt an hour, we went to get ready for the movie...

jon went to buy sum chicken.. at least i tink it's chicken.. lol.. then we went in the movie theatre.. waiting anxiously for the movie to start.. it took a very long time to start.. wit the trailers n advertisements n evryting.. was kinda piss off for a while a moment there.. then the movie started.. i watched the movie wit full concentration.. then suddenly kinda saw tis cute guy, 1 of the lead actor.. he's so damn cute n hot lar!!.. argh!!.. n his character name is raymond.. omg!.. i nearly melted in my seat there n then.. lol.. he's a lifeguard in the story.. n jojo dun look like she's our age.. she looks younger.. way younger!.. she n another gurl, her name's emma sumting.. anw, haylie (jojo) n claire (emma) had been reli gd frens since hay moved into town.. but recently had to go away cos her mum's on a business trip to Australia.. so they made a wish.. then the mermaid, aquamarine (sara paxton) came into the pool at the beachside, which belongs to claire's grandparents.. they found out abt the aqua n decided to help her find love so dat her dad can't make her marry sum merman in the sea.. dat's when aqua saw raymond n decides to make him love her.. fact was both hay n claire didn't wanna agree in the 1st place bcos they too love raymond but since they'll get a wish after helping her, they agreed.. in the story, there's also a bitch named cecialia, who also haf her eyes on the hot raymond.. like any other normal story.. but in the end, she didn't get wat she wants.. raymond totally like aqua.. but not love her cos it had only been 2 days.. cecialia played dirty tricks n evryting.. but evryting ended when cecilia pushed aqua into the sea n of cos, aqua turned into a mermaid.. raymond saw dat n was pretty shocked.. but went to try to save her too.. b4 he got his surf board, hay n claire went to jump in n tried saving her.. when they told her how much they loved her n wished she cud stay wit them, the disaster stopped n aqua knew dat she didn't haf to go home cos she had proven to her dad dat there's love in the human world.. then raymond came wit his surf board (omg!..im gonna say tis again..he's so hot n drop dead gorgeous!..lol..sorie abt dat guys...).. so hay n claire left the both of them.. they talked n raymond still wanna meet aqua but dunno how to ask a mermaid out.. then ending was hay n claire didn't use their wish n hay still left for australia cos she knew her mum had been working hard for dat chance.. then the movie ended.. it was quite a nice ending lar even tho there's emo parts here n there.. during all the emotional parts, zahh n i sat reli2 close together n we kinda hugged n cried at the same time.. cos basically, tis story is abt true love in frienships.. n it kinda proves dat relationship love is not evryting.. but, im still gonna say tis again, raymond's so hot!!.. or wateva dat actor's real name is.. lol...

after the movie, it was oredy ard 4+ goin 5 in the morning.. we went to cheers to buy a big bottle of mineral water.. then we walked to, in front of taka i tink, n kinda sat down, talked n crap, while gulping down a big bottle of mineral water.. we were kinda sleepy then.. so we decided to go home.. my mum, shaf n me took 1 cab to my hse while jon n zahh took another cab so dat he sent zahh home 1st the come to my hse.. jon, shaf n me sat in my room n talked abt skul stuffs n frenship n evryting.. we talked abt the problems dat's surfacing n crap like dat.. til abt 6am, which was when i tink i dozed off.. lol.. actually, i still hear them talking n when they called my name, i can't seem to find the energy to ans them.. hee.. sorie guys.. anw, tink soon after, they fell asleep too...

then i woke up ard 9+.. dat's abt 3 hrs of insufficient sleep.. sleepily, i make my way to the toilet n get ready to go to natha's n dan's (shahridan ppl.. dun get the wrong person plz...) b'day party.. well, i went early to help out a bit.. kinda promised mabel dat i'll go early wit her to help out.. in the end, i was a bit late.. haha.. then we tried hailing down a cab to take 5 ppl to Aspen Heights at river valley (a condo).. but since dat ass of a taxi driver refuses to take 5 ppl, i ended up taking the same cab wit mam while dan took a cab wit mab n another guy who i dun reli noe the name.. in the cad, it was reli fun talking to mama.. she told me wat's goin on in natha's n dan's hectic life.. n wat she actually expects from them but do not get the real result.. can't blame her cos teens r like dat.. there r certain stuffs dat parents do not nid to noe.. it's invading their privacy.. they shud understand dat when their child wanna tell them sumting, they will.. if not, i dun tink they shud noe.. but anw, let's juz drop dat.. had a quite nice time wit them.. mama was so funny.. but sumtimes wat she says make sense.. then dunno y, mab left halfway.. muz haf been a fight wit dan again.. hope they'll resolve it quickly.. dun want them to end up like me.. *shrugged*.. then ard 12+pm, nath came wit her cuz n grandma.. then her relatives n mam's frens start flooding in.. ard 3+ goin 4, their frens started coming.. it was reli fun talking to her cuz, grandma n aunt.. was having a great time when.. hmm.. my mood suddenly change?.. yeah.. dat's it.. my mood changed.. cos i heard dan talking to u-noe-who n dat u-noe-who's coming soon.. i juz wanted to go back rite after i heard dat.. but my ass of a bro dun wanna change after swimming yet.. so i had to wait for him.. n when he finally changed, u-noe-who arrived.. then my stomach dun feel too gd.. cos i tink it has got butterflies in it.. anw, went off soon after dat.. wit bradley, marline, my bro n habib.. didn't wanna stay any longer now dat he's there...

marline dropped off at queenstown mrt while the rest of us stopped at queensway.. cos brad had to buy his stud cos he lost it n nid to get a new 1.. so we acompanied him.. met abg hanif while im there.. cos he's working.. he's getting a lot moe handsome these days.. oh my godbrothers are getting better-looking by the day.. lol.. then we ate at mc.. brad was being a total dearie.. then we talked n evryting.. it was reli2 nice.. then it was ard 9+ so we made our way home.. brad suggested sending my bro n me to the bus stop n when i declined, he still insisted.. so he n habib kinda accompanied us to the bus stop.. along the way, we talked non-stop.. like there was a neva ending subject.. the bus came not too long after dat so we boarded n they left soon after waving.. then we reached home n started getting ready to go to sleep.. tink my bro had a gd time even tho he came a bit later...

dat's all for today ppl.. i reli nid to get sum serious sleep now after only having 3 hrs of sleep in the morning...

had quite a nice day today.. seen ssjs music video.. it was damn funny.. they'll surely score very gd marks if making a music vid is 1 of the subjects included in skuls academic crap.. lol.. it was a video of no doubt's don't speak.. i was smiling all the way.. bcos says's face in the vid was reli2 emo.. no joking.. n he looks beta suddenly.. as in cuter.. haha!.. tink i juz heard says say "of cos!".. *grins* anw, went out wit my cuz again.. lol.. juz dat tis time i feel like juz hanging ard wit my cuz.. cos it's been a very2 long time since we've gone out together.. we grew up together.. so, yeah.. we didn't reli go anywhere.. u ppl out there shud get my drift...

hmm.. apart from tis, i wanna say sumting else.. i dunno wat's gotten into me.. lately, i been tryna help ppl wit their probs.. okie.. i noe.. u may find it irritating or mayb even me bein a total busybody/nuisance.. but seriously, if i can help, in any way, y not offer sum help?.. yeah, of cos it's still up to them if they wanna accept it.. but there's reli no harm in tryna help rite?.. for all we noe, the help dat i offered might helped in sum ways.. let's say.. making ppl/them feel beta or sumting else bsides dat.. yeah, yeah.. heard u guys laughing there.. i dun mind dat tho...

anw.. lately, i've been doing a lot of reflection too.. okie, wait.. i do reflect evrytime.. it's juz dat i dun reflect deeply n stuffs like dat.. well, lately i've been reflecting on wat's goin on in my life n my actions nowadays.. i've come to a sudden conclusion.. dat.. mayb i dun fit in the bill of "a-gd-fren" .. i mean.. i dunno.. it's juz dat wat i've been tinking on/of brought me back to.. the last 2 yrs.. when i was in sec 2.. it was early sec 2 to b exact.. i remembered wat happened to me back then...

i was shunned away by my very2 close frens whom i already regarded as my own.. but they turned ard n backstabbed me.. n i didn't even noe wat i did to them.. we always do a lot of stuffs together n crap like dat.. but the sudden change in them was too drastic 4 me.. til i cudn't take it, i broke down n juz wished dat i wud die getting knocked down by a big lorry til im crushed or sumting.. but finally figured out dat dat wasn't gonna help or do any gd.. so when i finally ask them, they dun reli noe too.. i mean.. they dunno wat reasons to gimme.. well, i can't say dat for sure.. i do tink they noe the reasons n it's juz dat they dun wanna tell me...

but dat's not reli the point here.. dat incident had taught me n made me feel wat it's like to haf ppl disliking u for sum no-gd-reasons.. n now.. tis year, i tink i made sum1, who was once close to me n whom i regarded s a sista (i still do actually), feel the same way dat i did back then.. i feel so bad dat even rite now, im like crying, tinking of how painful it was goin thru dat kinda shit alone w/o any gd frens to help u along/out of it.. n im not feeling sorie 4 her or anyting.. cos i dun want her to tink dat in my heart im actually saying sumting like "gd!..u deserve dat!".. no, i dun mean anyting like dat.. i juz dun want her to go wat i've been thru.. it's like learning more abt life the hard way.. n it sux!.. so here i m today, apologising to AZY.. i reli didn't mean to make u feel dat way.. n i've no reasons.. the only ting dat i can say is dat ppl change.. n circumstances change them.. mayb u reli did noting.. or mayb u did.. i mean.. it's not abt u getting all screechy n evryting.. n it's also not abt u acting cute or anyting like dat.. cos gurls do act cute at times.. i dun deny dat i act cute sumtimes too.. but of cos, evryting has a limit, isn't it?.. so, yeah.. im reli sorie...

rite now, at tis moment.. im still tinking abt lots of other stuffs.. n i nid to do sumting abt evryting.. so, yeah.. i'll juz stop here.. i'll b going out soon anw.. hmm.. most probably goin to eat supper n watch movie - aquamarine.. i've been waiting 4 tis movie 4 like ages.. lol.. see u guys ard...



p.s: plz dun 4get to tag my board since u guys r already here aightz.. *winkz*

no.. not me.. im fine.. it's my bro.. who's so clever n went home wit a very deep wound on his knee.. n guess wat.. doctor suspects dat his knee bone is fractured or sumting like dat.. so, yeah.. dat's the reason y i haven reli been updating...

in case u ppl out there who's in skul but didn't notice dat i haven been to skul lately, im telling u now.. was absent on mon n yesterday.. mon was for another reason.. but yesterday was bcos i had to look after my bro in the hospital.. n i only went to skul today.. there's no chance to update anyting when u're in the hospital.. but anw.. tis morning, i tink i saw David Loo at the hospital too.. guess he had a knee or leg ting.. cos he had bandage on his leg n he was using the wheelchair.. guess it muz haf been serious huh.. nevertheless, wish he'll get well soon or sumting.. kinda miss his wacky classes.. which we dun get now dat mr malik is teaching us wit his monotonous voice...

watched movie wit my cuz now.. well.. we rarely hang out.. so it was kinda cool.. to go out wit ur cuz once in a while.. cos i always hang out wit my frens nowadays.. not dat they're getting boring or anyting.. but it's always nice to haf a change of company or sumting like dat..

well.. dat's it for now.. i tink im gonna b sick.. wanna go to sleep now.. even though it's still early...

yeah.. went to escape theme park wit my family, excluding my dad, + my cuzs n grandma.. well, she doesn't get on the rides of cos.. she'll get heart attack if she did.. lol :p.. she only accompanying my cuzs, which she's looking after.. i wanted to ask my fren along or sumting.. but they haf their own plans n stuffs.. so, yeah.. ended up wit my family.. it wasn't reli dat bad though...

tot asking my cuz along wud b damn boring.. cos she's so afraid of heights n getting dizzy n all dat shit.. but i dragged her along anw.. i mean.. til when she wanna miss out on these thrill rides?.. it'll b a waste of tix if she juz sit n do noting there rite.. n so she did.. she had a lot of fun.. from wat i can see.. she played the wet n wild til she's reli wet.. n she played the dunno wat ride, which turns n made u feel like u're gonna fall or sumting like dat, til the machine decides not to let her go.. lol.. it was stuck.. only her seat.. weird, ain't it?.. haha.. i was standing there, laughing at her while eating the candy floss n she's stuck at the machine, waiting to b saved.. haha...

guess dat's all for today.. cos it's getting late.. n im getting sleepy too...

hmm.. noting much happen in skul today.. cos i didn't do anyting fun or weird.. though the weirdest ting abt me juz now was im reading a book.. lol :p.. it's a very boring n sleepy day 4 me cos i slept later than usual.. bcos of sumting.. which i tink oni sum ppl noe.. *grins*

anw, yeah.. s my title say so, im in trouble.. wit the Principal.. cos i was late again 4 skul.. 4 the.. hmm.. let me try n recall.. 8th time?.. so, yeah.. im late 4 the 8th time today.. n the next time im late n caught by the Principal.. my punishment is.. to call in my parents.. n i'll haf to sit outside her office 4 the whole day when i come late...

u guys might tink im crazy.. but seriously, there's no point in goin to skul early.. i mean.. im not a morning person.. so i wudn't wanna hang out wit any1, in case i get irritated he/she.. unless he's my boyfren lar.. but it wudn't b happening any time soon.. cos im kinda single now.. im not saying dat i dun wanna hang out wit my frens.. i mean, u guys surely wud understand dat i dun wanna get irritated wit u guys.. so, yeah.. thx 4 the understanding.. *smiles*

Yeah, i changed my blogskin.. AGAIN.. sorie to those out there who tinks dat i haf a lot of time to spare.. it's juz dat bloggin helps me to de-stress.. in wat way, u're asking?.. hmm.. i can juz say dat by bloggin, at least i dun haf to bottle tings up anymore.. even though there r sum tings dat i keep deep inside.. n i'll take it to wit me forever.. haiz...

i've got noting interesting to talk abt.. but i juz wanna take tis chance to apologise to my sis.. for blowing my top...

i reli m sorie.. i didn't mean to ask u to shut up or anyting.. n u r not a bad influence.. i m.. im reli2 sorie.. all u had to do juz now was juz gimme the ans to the qtn dat i asked n not babbled on.. u noe wat.. but seriously, im sorie...

i've juz realised dat im laggin.. evry1's been talking abt seabass's emo post n i juz got to noe abt it now.. well, u can't blame me for dat cos i haven been goin to ppl's blog for a very very long time.. so, yeah.. i went to his blog n.. hmm...

im reli reli touched n moved to tears by sebastian's post (http://kohconut.blogspot.com).. it seems dat he's reli reli sad.. abt sumting.. which i dunno.. probably his family stuffs.. n dat he feels dat he's a loner.. he's lonely.. or sumting like dat.. i pity him.. but, lame s he is, he makes a very gd fren.. sum1 who will cheer u up when u're down.. sum1 who u can juz count on to make urself feel beta after listening to jokes (sumtimes lame jokes) dat he tell.. but i dun tink it's fair.. it's not fair in a sense dat.. he listens to our some of our prob, he tries to cheer us up, etc.. but who's there to cheer him up when he's down?.. who's gonna listen to him when times get rough?.. who will he lean on to n ask 4 support when difficult times occur?.. n according to him, he juz wishes 4 a true fren n no more lonely days...

Tis msg goes out to him (Sebastian) hey.. u got us u noe.. all those who u r close wit in 4/4.. says, jonn, shaff, zahh, daph, kavi n me.. yeah, mayb we're juz acquiantances to u.. but s times grow by, we haf dat bond between us.. u noe dat we're there for u.. okie, i dunno abt the others.. but at least i can say dat, 4 myself, im always here 4 u to lend a listening ear/shoulder to cry on.. dun make the ppl ard u feel like they're the 1s who r the cause of tis n ur moods r affected.. bcos i feel dat it's gonna affect a lot of ppl too.. sun tink dat we're juz saying tis to make u feel beta.. we mean wat we say.. so, yeah.. always noe dat we're here 4 u aightz...

yeah.. i noe.. i haven been updating my boring blog.. but dat's oni bcos im having probs wit using the com at home.. my bro always screws my chance of using he com 4 a few hrs...

anw, i went to sleepover at Swissotel the Stamford on fri, 14th april.. it was reli cool.. OUR room is on the 42nd floor.. yeah, u read rite.. it's on the 42nd floor.. the ambience, the view/scene n evryting.. OMG.. juz blows me away man.. juz makes me feel s though im taller than evryting else (yes, yes.. i noe).. check-in at ard 12.30pm n then went to eat lunch wit zahh n her dad.. after dat, we returned to OUR hotel room n juz relax.. listen to the radio all the way till we fell asleep 4 a while.. when we woke up, it was ard 6+pm.. we kinda snacked a bit while sitting at the balcony.. we talked, joked n evryting.. n suddenly, both of us were emo 4 a short period of time...

then ard 8pm, we went out to town.. walk ard, doin noting except talk n talk.. we went to the new Cathay building n bought 4 "take the lead"movie tix.. for zahh, shaff, jonn n me.. it starts at 12.20.. we had to wait 4 jon to finish working.. so we went to eat 1st cos zahh was oredy hungry again.. after a long wait, they finally turn up.. so we waited 4 the movie to start.. the movie was great!.. it's worth watching.. dat's y i decided to watch it again wit.. hmm... kavii mayb.. cos she's not there...

after the show, which was ard 2+ in the morning, jon n shaff wanted to eat cos they were reli2 hungry.. we went back to PS's mc.. after eating, we walked all the way back to the hotel.. when we reached, jon n shaff went to the balcony to chill.. then zahh n me locked them outside.. n then shaf got scared a bit cos his imagination ran wild 4 a while (shaf shud noe wat i mean *winkz*).. then we had pillow fights.. jon was so rough dat zahh made a theory abt him n his future wife.. lol.. they hit us till zahh's lips bleed.. well, it was oredy 5+am in the morning after the stupid, silly pillow fights.. zahh n i wanted to go to sleep.. but dat 2 bugger juz won't let us go to sleep!.. it was reli frustratin.. dat was the 1st time im deprived of my sleep.. lol.. anw, they eventually got tired as well.. so they finally had a nap.. dat was when im able to sleep.. BUT.. juz as i was abt to sleep, they both of them started SNORING away!!.. argh!!.. it's reli irritating.. cos when they're not sleeping, they wudn't let us sleep.. but when they're sleeping, their snores r disturbing me who's trying to get sum sleep!.. my GOD!.. i nearly died there.. lol.. ok.. dat was too drama.. but seriously, even when they've woken up, they pester us to wake up too.. i didn't even haf a nice hour of sleep lar...

in the morning, shaff n jon went to fetch says.. they went to buy breakfast after dat.. then, when they came back, says started getting all horny n tried showing zahh n me his ugly butt!.. yuck!.. it was disgusting!.. god noes wat came over him.. anw, we skipped chem VAP dat sat morning.. then we had ice fights.. yeah, u read dat rite too.. ice fights.. stupid says n jonn tried puting ice into our shirts.. they didn't manage to get the ice into me.. but into zahh'a tee n pants.. lol.. it was reli2 fun...

when i reached home, i was so dead tired.. from all the fun, of cos.. and i went to sleep straightaway.. i feel beta after waking up.. cos i felt s if i'd get a fever or sumting.. from overdose of fun.. lol :p

yeah, i skipped skul today.. n so did zahh.. n many others.. actually, we wanted to go out early in the morning.. but i guessed evrybody wants their longer sleeping time...

well, a lot of plans were aborted.. for 1 reason or another.. then kavii, seabass, daph all can't go.. so we ended up aborting the most brilliant plan.. which is sumting dat we neva did n shud do 4 a change.. well, i shan't tell u guys yet!.. so jon, my mum, bro, says, shaf, zahh n me went to harbourfront cos my mum neva been there n wanna noe wat it's like.. after eating, jon had to go work n says gtg home b4 8.. so he went.. even though he wanted to drag shaf along wit him, my mum told him to go home alone.. hahax.. he was kinda sad though...

so we went to the top floor to c sum big sale or sumting like dat.. then suddenly zah had a sudden urge to go to the toilet.. so we went to the nearest 1.. which no many ppl reli went to.. n luckily, zahh asked me to accompany her.. if not, god noes wat she wud c in there.. when we came in, there was a lady inside.. after zahh went into a cubicle, she went out.. leaving me n zahh alone.. i was adjusting my scarf while zahh was doing her business.. n we were VERY VERY certain dat we were the only 1s left in the toilet.. then zahh came outta the cubicle n stand in front of a mirror on my right.. shortly after dat, i heard a sound, s if sum1 was sniffing, like when they haf runny nose or after crying, coming from my right.. so i turned n looked at zahh cos i tot it was her.. but she looked at me in a weird way.. so we didn't talk much n straightaway went outta the toilet.. then zahh suddenly asked me.. "u heard dat sniffing sound, didn't u?".. then i was like.. "yeah, wasn't dat u?".. then she said it wasn't.. it was coming from her right.. which means from the cubicles.. the LAST cubicle.. OMG!.. we were totally freaked out!.. we felt goosebumps after dat n we straightaway walked closely to my mum.. dat was a TRUE ghostly experience.. sumhow, both of us noe wat we reli heard.. then we walked ard a bit b4 zahh came up wit a very gd idea when we didn't noe where to go oredy...

zahh suggested dat we go to clarke quay.. or was it boat quay?.. hahax.. i dunno.. it's sumwhere near the bunjee ting.. then we sat at the riverside.. n during dat time, we were feeling kinda hungry.. so we ordered canadian pizza!!.. 6-241-0-241.. yum yum!.. we were having so much fun.. bought water from 7-11.. then play all kinds of card games dat my mum brought along wit her.. then.. sumting happened to my shoe!!.. omg!.. it is so embarrassing!!.. so i won't elaborate.. hahax.. then after going to the eerie toilet, we went home taking a cab.. dropped zahh 1st, then my mum, bro n me, then shaf went home.. omg.. it's a very nice day today.. had a very gd time.. wished my darl's wit me too.. but too bad he's not...

okie.. today's the 4th time im late 4 skul.. yesterday was the 3rd.. cos was talking n conferencing on the phone wit nes n kavii.. 4got wat time i slept.. haha.. but actually, i kinda planned the 'coming late' ting wit zahh n kavii.. anw, noting interesting happened in skul today lar.. noting other than kavii always dissing me abt yesterday...

after skul, went to SP ( it stands 4 'Singapore Polytechnic' to those who r both dumb n blur out there who dunno) to eat.. there was 6 of us.. my mum, bro, jon, kavii, zahh n me.. says didn't follow cos he wanted to play soccer in skul.. shaf didn't follow cos he said he wanna go home n sleep.. then i got to noe sumting.. which i can't pretend dat i dun feel sad abt.. zahh shud noe wat im talking abt.. oh well, after eating, we played 'uno' n 'donkey'.. it was reli fun.. especially the 'donkey' game.. anw, kavii, jon n zahh went home after the heavy rain had settled down a bit while my mum, bro n me went to JE (Jurong East) to meet my dad n make my bro's ez-link card.. yeah, dat's abt it today...

suddenly seabass suggested goin to my house after skul today to eat.. it was pretty weird n funny tho.. cos he said he like my mum's cooking.. but of cos i was ok wit dat.. then kavii told my mum to cook cos they wud b coming over... my mum's ok wit dat too...

anw, i dunno y but.. i bcame very emo during malay class.. i seriously dunno y.. after skul, was suppose to go back home straight.. but i needed to talk to my darl.. well, it's oni bcos i nid to clear tings up wit him so dat tings wudn't seemed so messy.. yeah, i cried.. i wanted to let go.. but cudn't bring myself to.. dat was y kavii n zahh got angry at me.. sorry guys.. then suddenly, aini got angry too.. saying dat she was waiting 4 us at the foyer n we were in the canteen.. i seriously didn't noe dat she was waiting!.. n bcos of dat, she was angry at zahh n kavii too.. but they too dunno dat she was waiting.. then in the bus, she said dat she's worried 4 us bcos of our studies n dunno y we're still caring abt tis kinda shit...

dat brought all of us to tears.. yeah, i noe.. we're doing our 'O's tis yr n she's juz concerned.. but seriously, wat made her tink dat we're not concerned?.. afterall, it's our future dat we're talking abt here.. n if we dun care abt it, then nobody can help.. im sure the 3 of us noe tis, n we're trying our BEST to actually get our ass to get to work n not b lazy n slacking ard.. but to do tis, we nid to be strong n straight, physically, mentally n emotionally.. n rite now, all of us haf our own problems to settle.. yeah, we can try to postpone our problems to after the 'O's.. but by dat time, evryting will b too late isn't it... cos we wun b able to concentrate when those problems just keep haunting us, those ans dat u need to keep u going n evryting.. ppl who r not in our shoes wun noe n understand wat we're feeling.. seriously...

yeah!.. today's daphne's b'day.. jon went to skul VERY2 early in the morning juz to get evryting ready n in place b4 daph comes to skul to gif her a surprise!.. very touching actually.. then daph got a shock of her life.. n evryting falls into place nicely.. was glad dat evryting went well.. the cake 4 her was celebrated yesterday oredy.. so, yeah.. we juz brought her lots n lots of presents!..

anw, didn't do much after skul.. cos zahh had softball tournament.. n the rest haf their own plans.. i tink they went sunset way n west coast park again.. hmm.. dat's abt it today.. i guess...

yay!.. today's is says b'day!.. went to skul wit him in the morning.. cos he asked me to.. anw, it's his b'day!.. so, yeah.. juz gif him face lar!.. he was talking crap all the way while we were walking.. noting reli happened in class lar.. cos ivan wasn't ard to give him his b'day bash.. which he felt very relieved.. lol :p...

after skul, we had to go see the VP bcos of Physics.. haiz.. dat stupid james tan ar.. evrytime oso complain.. but all tis happened cos he's been talking crap in class.. wonder how timothy n the others can understand n pass his tests.. anw, after dat, my mum brought his n daph's b'day cake.. then we sang b'day song, sabo-ed him n took photos.. it was reli crazy!.. yeah, there was a point of time when i felt reli stupid n helpless b4 the cake party started.. yeah, s u all haf guessed.. my darl.. he's supposed to come n clarify wateva tings he haf to.. but he didn't, even when he saw me in the canteen.. haiz.. so sad.. but, yeah.. nvm abt dat...

we went to PS after dat in a cab.. yeah, the usual ppl.. my mum, bro, says, shaf, jon, zahh, kavii n of cos me.. kinda told says dat his dgcam is lost.. hahax.. he was a bit freaked out.. ok, we were reli mean to him lar.. but we did tell him anw.. so we ate, crapped n evryting.. like usual.. then we did sumting dat was reli2 fun!.. we took photos wit those specs wit thick frames n tried to act like nerds!!.. there was a formal n informal photo!.. oh my god!!.. we looked so damned nerdy!.. those who went wit us n took the photo will noe!.. rite guys (",)?.. anw, kavii had to go back after dat.. so the rest of us went to taka to help jon pick a necklace dat he wanna buy 4 daph as her b'day.. on the way there, we met zahh's mum.. then.. i shan't elaborate further 4 privacy's sake.. after choosing the necklace 4 jon to give to daph, we went to the taxi stand.. b4 dat, needed to go toilet.. so while waiting 4 them to go toilet, says wanted zahh to take a photo wit him alone.. then sumting terrible happened!!.. i DUN wanna elaborate!.. all i can say is im sorie kor.. i reli reli didn't mean to do dat!.. plz forgive me!...

after dat, wit me feeling VERY guilty, we went to the taxi stand.. n bcos we r tired of waiting 4 the long queue to end, we called 4 a cab.. n guess wat.. shafiq created a new mrt station!!... lol :P.. he called it " Orchard Turn Mrt Station ".. yeah, u can imagine how we laughed like crazy!.. n i tink the operator was blur 4 awhile.. hahax.. then we (my mum, bro, zahh n me) took a cab to IMM.. we had to go to Daiso cos zahh needed to buy the blocks ting by tmr.. if not, Kavii n her will b punished.. at Daiso, my mum, bro, zahh n me found sumting.. which was reli funny!.. zahh shud noe wat i mean.. rite zahh?.. *winkz winkz*... after dat, we went home taking a cab bcos it was kinda late oredy.. so, yeah.. dat's abt all 4 today.. had quite an interesting day.. n says, i'm reli sorie!!

yeah.. i noe.. i haven been updating.. cos im too bz tryna solve problems.. 1stly, was abt zahh n kavii.. cos kavii got angry at me for.. hmm.. dunno wat.. n then zahh started being emo.. n yeah, wateva dat's been happening in class to my kor.. im sorie kor!.. but he gotta noe dat sum1 else dat's close to him planned it too..n while the other person planned it wit god-noes-wat intentions, my intentions were gd.. even though i noe it kinda freaked him out a bit...

anw, apart from tis.. my usual prob.. my darl.. i seriously feel like giving up oredy.. but much s i want to, i luv him too much to actually let go completely.. u sistas n guys out there who's close to me shud noe wat i mean.. especially jon.. my another kor who's been counselling me.. lol :p.. counselling sounds so serious.. but seriously, i dun tink i can hold on much longer.. if my darl's not gonna do anyting abt tis, i dunno wat i'll do.. mayb i'll juz break down.. or mayb.. worst than dat.. haiz.. yeah yeah.. i noe u guys will say dat he's not worth it, blah blah blah.. but u can't expect me to juz let go of sumting which i haf been treasuring for the past.. let's see.. 1 year n 8+ months.. rite?.. i mean.. even if i were to let go, i still need time.. like they said.. time will heal evryting.. but of cos.. there's sumting dat i realised as i grow up.. time will heal evryting, but not completely.. the scars will still b there for s long s u live.. so no matter how far behind dat memory is in u, u'll still b reminded by it...