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Saturday, July 08, 2006

|| Within The Silence.... ||

they say frens come n go.. didn't believe dat.. they say " foreva " dun last.. didn't believe dat either.. didn't believe it til it actually happened.. wat's wit the word " FOREVA " ?.. izit the word?.. or izit the meaning behind it??.. i guess it's the meaning huh.. ppl dun reli understand it.. wat they understand abt it isn't wat it reli is.. they've misunderstood...

wat does it take to b a very gd fren?.. ok, scrap the 'very' part.. wat does it take to b a gd fren?.. izit 1's character?.. izit how 1 bring themselves around?.. izit 1's confidence?.. or izit to each his own??.. ppl can't reli figure dat out, can they?.. all they eva cared abt is themselves.. even when u try to b urself, ppl hate u for dat.. when u try to share ur frens' pain, they shun u away.. when u try not to say the tings dat will hurt them, u'll juz b leading them to the point dat they dun reli care abt anyting else.. n when they finally noe the truth, they can't handle it.. dat's y it's beta to say it out aloud, isn't it?.. but at the same time, when u say it aloud, they wun accept it.. n in fact, they'll critisize n say bad tings abt u.. when all u eva wanted to do was to juz make them happy, tho sumtimes u're hurting inside.. but does always giving in count?.. i dun tink so.. sumtimes u gotta change sum stuffs.. n change, IS gd.. change the way u look at tings, change ur perspectives, etc.. frens nid to haf respect for each other.. w/o respect, the frenship dat they're developing is juz redundant.. n wat abt the back-stabbing part??.. i neva reli understood dat 1.. it's like.. they juz can't stand seeing their frens doing much much beta than them.. seriously, y can't any1 juz live wit wat they haf rather than hoping n doin stuffs to get wat they want??.. if most ppl r like tis, the world wud b a beta place, wudn't it?.. of cos.. it's juz the way life is in tis world.. sumtimes i dun even understand y sum ppl, or shud i say sum of my frens, wanna buy n pay stuffs for me.. my movie tix, my food, the stuffs i wanna buy, etc.. well, i appreciate them wanting to do dat.. but i'd rather they juz let me b.. lest the title "money-face" wud b slapped on me.. it's not s if it hadn't happened b4.. of cos n obviously.. i dun eva want it to happen again.. but reli, who wud eva care if their own interest's at stake.. rite?.. juz bcos sum ppl always use other ppl to their advantage doesn't mean dat others will do the same s they did.. ppl wit these kind of tinking neva get far in life.. they're juz wasting their time n energy.. in being such an ass.. trust me...

n wat does it take to b a gd sista, a gd godsista??.. it's sumting which i reli dun understand too.. tried to b nice, tried to solve their complicated problems.. but in the end, wat do i get?.. accusations n stuffs.. izit wrong to tell them wat i tink is rite n wat i tink is wrong?.. yeah, mayb i shud juz let them b.. but seriously, wud u eva leave ur bro/sis in a lurch if they're having a problem,etc??.. the least dat i cud get from them after helping them is a gesture of appreciation.. i dun nid them to buy me stuffs, or do anyting.. a "thank u" wud b nice.. or helping me when i nid it is fine.. i dun nid all these accusations for noting.. if dat's wat im gonna get in the end, i'll juz leave u alone n not care from now on aight...

lastly, wat does it take to b a gd gf?.. being understanding?.. trusting him?.. shower ur care n love on him?.. spending time wit him?.. making him 1 of ur priority?.. but seriously, wat do u reli get after u've given him all tis?.. well, of cos.. doing all tis wit sincerity does not nid any big favours from him in return.. but do we get sum appreciation?.. nah.. u'll juz get hurt n a broken heart.. u'll juz feel reli2 sad n miserable n dejected n waste ur precious tears for them in the end.. like, wat the hell.. sumtimes, it seems to me dat all the gd guys out there r taken or juz dun exist anymore.. guys these days juz dunno how to appreciate a gurl who's been loving n giving him her all.. seriously, wat i tink we nid in return is juz their love, affection, care n time.. n for gurls/guys out there who's looking for material returns, screw urself.. dat's not wat u ppl ought to b looking for.. n for gurls/guys out there who tinks dat the $$$ u spent on ur gf/bf is enouf, u're dead wrong...

if wat i've written above haf caused sum unhappiness among ppl out there, im reli sorie.. im juz writing wat i had been tinking abt.. if u're not happy abt it, then.. live wit it.. it's hard facts ppl.. n it means dat i've hit the nail on the head.. my blog, my say...

11:23 PM


Saturday, July 01, 2006

|| Back From Being Gone.... ||

sorie for not posting for a very long time already.. was too bz wit personal stuffs.. n also my com has been giving a lot of problems.. n still is actually...

well, a lot of tings came up.. so i dunno where to start.. went to celebrate sebast's b'day during the holiday on his b'day.. had fun off cos.. hope he liked wateva we planned for him...

been bz wit stuffs at the mosque too.. miss the camp obviously.. bz planning the next outing for all campers n members involve during the camp...

hmm.. abt my life.. im not reli ready to update abt it yet.. tot evryting wud b perfect.. juz when i tot dat evryting wud b beta, more n more tings came up.. like the exams n stuffs.. oh, talking abt exams.. juz had my chem n A maths paper yesterday.. it was a disaster.. trust me...

dat's it for now.. evryting's complicated...

8:12 PM


|| The GurL ||

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|| Widuri ||
|| Gemini ||
|| Down-to-earth ||
|| Open-minded ||
|| Fun-loving ||
|| Gd Listener ||
|| Quiet At Times,Otherwise Very Hyper ||

|| Loves ||

|| MY SAYANG ||
|| KemRa ||
|| Music ||
|| Sweets ||
|| Chilling ||
|| Chocolates ||
|| Ice Creams ||
|| Singing ||
|| Perfumes ||
|| Making Frens ||

|| Hates ||

|| Liars ||
|| Two-faced Freaks ||
|| Empty Promises ||
|| Nonsensical & Immature Person ||

|| Wishes For ||

|| Bike License ||
|| Car License ||
|| Advanced Diving License ||
|| Estee Lauder - Pleasures ||
|| Lotsa New Clothes ||
|| Shoes ||
|| A Diving Getaway ||
|| Swimming with Dolphins ||
|| Calm, Peace & Serenity ||
|| More Happy Days Ahead ||

|| Speak Up ||



|| My Current Emotion ||



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