yeah, im so bored to tears guys.. seriously.. i can't tink of anyting else to do during tis holidays.. cos im reli2 free for the rest of the holiday.. noting on my schedule.. well, there's an option actually.. i can start studying/revising for my mid-yr exam.. but dat'll b another seriously boring ting to do.. studies bore me.. im sure u guys noe dat.. n to b honest, i can't reli go out cos im broke.. but if given a chance, i'll still wanna go out tho...

so, if sum1 out there who's juz s bored s me.. plz.. im begging u.. ASK ME OUT !!!.. i'll reli appreciate dat u noe!.. hee (",)....

heyz.. came back from the camp on sun.. was too tired to even blogged abt it, even now.. so i shan't talk much abt it lar.. but it was a blast!!. i juz LUVV the ppl involve, in other words, the committee itself.. they're the 1s who taught me how to b a faci, s im juz a 1st-timer.. i hope to b involve in more camp-facilitating now.. all i can say is dat the logistic part were exhausting.. well, i kinda did the paperwork.. it was ok, tho i didn't reli haf much of sleep.. except dat u nid a lot of confirmation wit the camp commandant,etc b4 confirming the real activities, programmes, etc.. but overall, yeah i noe i've said tis but im gonna say it again, i LUV the camp n it ROX!.. i LUV u guys who were involve...

the ppl involved were...

Camp Commandant/Asst. Camp Commandant: Farid n Kak Sarah

Logistics: Asri(head), Faiz, Rizal, Hj Daud, Abg Daud, Faritz, Khai, Rahim, Abg Fahamy, Hazree

Facilitators: Wafi(head) (im a head faci too..he's my partner :D), Fahmi, Syakira, Mariam, Nazmi, Farhan

lotsa thx to Farid, for giving me the opportunity to haf tis experience.. thx to the rest for making my days there lively n fun-filled n entertaining me like u guys haf known me since ages.. oh ya.. im stucked wit ur(Faritz, Fahmi, Farid, Asri) lines.. haha.. mariam shud noe wat i mean *winkz*.. n to zah, if u wanna noe more, ask me!!.. if not, i'll b the 1 telling.. hee...

anw, didn't turn up for chen extra lesson on mon, nor did i turn up for drums camp.. was reli2 too tired to even wake up early in the morning.. woke up at ard.. hmm.. let's see.. 12+ - 1?.. yeah, dat's abt the time.. rested the whole day.. but of cos, had to do hse work.. s usual.. was suppose to go for chem extra lesson today too.. but i was too tired to wake up.. cos was watching soccer matches.. but dat's not the point here...

n today, is kavii's b'day!.. so happy b'day to u sis!!.. well, had an outing planned 4 u, but didn't include azy.. since she asked u out for lunch, we brought her along.. went to PS s usual.. ate baked rice, n of cos ice cream.. we had fun.. gave her the presents dat evry1 chipped in 4.. then walked to heeren, to take neos.. the neos were awesome!.. then walked ard after dat in heeren,b4 kavii had to go home.. so she went off wit azy after dat.. leaving only zahh, my mum n me...

so the 3 of us walked ard town, doing noting except for crapping, n talking abt recent stuffs dat nids to b settled.. oh ya.. didn't noe dat my mum is quite gd at crapping n joking too.. lol.. but we had fun, the 3 of us.. laughing n evryting.. then we talked abt serious stuffs.. i dunno larz.. recently, tings juz fall outta place.. haiz.. tings r not reli goin smoothly for me s u guys tink it wud.. u guys won't understand wat im feeling.. so let's juz stop tis at tis ya.. ate at cine's LJS.. then went home wit zahh at ard 9+ - 10pm.. sat at the bus stop near commnwealth mrt station 4 awhile to talk abt us, s in zahh n me.. haha.. was a great talk sis.. hope to haf more of dat tho...

so now, im at home, doing noting except for exploring my new phone.. yeah, u heard dat rite.. my new phone.. it's my b'day present from my parents to b precise.. i juz luv my mum n dad.. oh ya.. i forgot to mention dat i got a hp pouch.. but i dunno who it was from.. so if u r the 1 who gave it to me, plz tag or sms me to tell me ya.. n i forgot to mention abg lutfi's(ahmad's) name.. he chipped in 4 my b'day present together wit the rest for the Roxy's diary, Ripcurl's landyard n Billabong's wallet.. so other than dat, im gonna watch the matches now.. so, til next time...

im quite sad yesterday.. cos i sent off my grandma n aunt to the airport.. cos they're goin to go 4 small Haj.. so, yeah.. pray dat evryting will go smoothly for the both of them n dat they'll come back safe n sound...

but anw ppl.. im so happy today!.. y?.. hmm.. bcos..... i went shopping wit zahh n my mum!!!.. well, didn't haf any class tis morning.. n even if there is, i wun go.. so it doesn't reli make a diff if there's class or not.. hee.. zahh had bio but she didn't go...

after shooing my bros + cuz to my dad's club hse at Bishan, my mum n me made our way to buona vista to meet zahh at the last cabin.. then we dropped at somerset.. walked ard.. went to wisma, tsc, far east.. went to a lot of shops.. from FCUK to surfer gurl to moshimoshi.. from mango to giordano to forever21.. juz to find jeans dat'll fit me nicely.. haha.. wore the jeans dat jeeva n sebast bought me for my b'day today.. bought amos famous cookies, double choc chip & choc chip n macademia.. all of us went into 1 fitting room juz to see if my jeans were nice on me.. lol.. while i was bz trying on the jeans, the 2 of them were eating cookies n laughing away.. in the end, bought 2 jeans from forever21.. which cost me abt $100.. wanted to buy a tote bag at the project shop, but it was too costly.. so dropped the idea.. well, i neva liked bringing tote bags.. but it's ez-ier cos im wearing scarf.. n when i reli like a tote bag, it's nice.. cos my eyes only fancy sum tote bags.. yeah, u can say dat im fussy.. then made our way to far east.. ate at long john's silver there.. n then made our way home...

well, it sounded s if it was 4 a short while.. but reli, nobody shops 4 a while in town.. we reached there at ard 4.30pm.. shop, shop, shop til 8+pm.. my mum's legs were aching by then.. zahh did sumting funny when we were walking ard.. haha.. shan't tell u guys.. i reli had a fun time.. no wait.. evry1 including zah had a fun time today.. it reli2 cool goin out shopping.. wish we can do dat often.. haha.. but fact is, we dun haf enouf $...

1st ting 1st.. b4 i forget to mention.. i updated my previous entry on the gift list.. i forgot to mention zul's name cos azy didn't tell me dat he did chipped in for my b'day gift too.. n i also forgot to mention a present given to me by 1 of my most important frens...

other than dat, noting much happened.. went to camp meeting yesterday.. after dat mar came to my hse to eat n chill for a while.. then went home ard 8pm.. didn't attend dnt class today.. cos was too sleepy to get up.. yeah, i noe.. sorie guys.. so did noting in the morning except played puzzle, like the 1 we used to play during eng lesson.. yeah, dat's the 1.. then had to clean my room.. n vacuumed my whole hse.. it was reli tiring.. after the tiring work, still had to keep the folded clothes.. then superman n fad came to my hse.. they played games wit my bros.. chilled, eat n then went home...

noting reli interesting happened juz now.. cos im in such a lousy mood now.. n i dunno y.. ok.. mayb i do.. but it's reli hard to explain.. mayb i made a wrong decision.. i mean.. s in in liking superman again.. for god's sake.. he already has a gf now!.. n noting's gonna change dat fact.. yeah, i still haf a crush on him but so wat??.. seriously, it doesn't even count.. haiz.. he's attached now.. so wat i reli shud do now is juz give up n move on.. afterall, there's still many guys out there rite.. haiz.. rite wid...

it's amazing how guys can pretend dat noting reli happened n juz move on wit their lives the next moment.. sumtimes, we dun even noe if they've moved on.. but.. it's reli amazing how they get into another relationship soon after 1 ended.. juz great.. like they're changing their daily clothes.. ain't it?...

hey ppl.. sorie for not updating for soooo long already.. it was bcos i was reli reli very bz wit preparation for my b'day party.. from food/ingredients to clothes n tings to bring to the chalet.. there was a whole lot of tings to do...

went out wit my mum to tampines mall.. i dunno wat she was looking for.. but we went window shopping.. then i saw.. the levi's shoe n jeans.. but we can only look n not buy cos my mum said dat she had used a lot of $ 4 my b'day party.. so she promised me to get them after my b'day if my aunts n uncles gimme $$$ s b'day present.. then we went to perlini's silver.. there was quite a couple of tings dat i liked but we juz looked ard.. then we went to b.u.m. equipment.. the jeans there were quite nice.. but had to shove the tot of buying aside.. haiz.. actually, there were lotsa stuffs dat i reli2 liked.. but nvm.. forget abt it...

so i had my GCE 'O' MT paper on mon.. it wasn't dat ez, but wasn't dat hard too.. was suppose to talk to kavii after dat, but in tthe end, she vanished n didn't attend for dnt class.. so dat's abt it.. on mon nite, didn't reli sleep well cos had to pack clothes n help my mum wit marinating chicken n stuffs.. bsides, i was too excited.. hee.. slept at ard 2+ in the mornin...

then it was my b'day!!.. happy birthday to me!.. well, jeeva n sebast came to my hse in the morning to help out, carry tings n stuffs like dat.. they were the 1st to give me presents.. hee.. masrezal n my godbro came too.. lucky they came, bcos there was a lot of tings to carry n we wud b reli2 having a hard time if it wasn't for these 4 ppl (",).. anw, a lot of ppl came to my party.. even tho i was a bit disappointed dat sum ppl wasn't there, like kavii, says n sum other old frens of mine, it was quite ok lar.. cos i was looking forward to sum1's else appearance.. *looks knowingly at kavii n zahh*.. but lets juz keep dat a secret n talk abt sumting else.. oh ya, i reli appreciated those who came the other day.. there's too many ppl to entertain so i was like rushing from 1 table to another to entertain evry1 w/o fail, tho i noe dat sum ppl didn't reli get my attention.. it wasn't on purpose aight.. after evry1 went home, dan's family came w/o him.. sat down wit his small sis n cuz bro n talked.. they're still s cute s eva.. n tho im wit their bro anymore, it doesn't reli matter cos i still luv them the same.. took pics wit deniz, adik, adam n raiyan b4 they went home tho.. erm.. let's change topic.. after they went home, my frens from swensen's came after work ard 12+am, abt the same time when 1 of my old fren came n shafiq too.. they were quite noisy at times larr.. no, wait.. actually, all the time.. haha.. no offence ppl...

so,1st n foremost, i'd like to apologise to those whom i didn't reli get to entertain properly.. n if i was a poor host on dat day, im reli reli very sorie bcos there was too many ppl.. 2ndly, i'd like to thank those who came early to help out.. n i'd like to thank masrezal a lot.. cos he went to the market wit my mum n me to help carry the plastic bags which weighed more than 5kg i tink.. well, yeah, of cos i noe he hope dat i'd realise dat he's doin tis sincerely n also wit another reason, but let's not talk abt dat.. i reli appreciated all the help dat he had given me.. n i noe dat i didn't reli get to talk to him much on dat day n he was a bit pissed off.. but reli, evryting was juz a misunderstanding.. if u happen to read tis, i m reli reli sorie ya...

anw, mas n his band members + his outside frens dat i noe slept over.. ok wait, we didn't sleep actually.. we stayed awake thru out the nite.. together wit zahh, jonn, shaff, hafiz, wan n 1 of my old fren.. we played cards n sang along to songs.. fad n zul did sumting reli funny dat i cudn't stop smiling.. then we went to the beach, walked talked, crapped, blow lights out *grins at zahh n jonn* n stuffs like dat.. sat by the beach at ard 3-4+ in the morning.. i remembered.. the time him n me sat there.. the same exact place.. 18th march.. n then a month after.. evryting was over.. memories flooded.. tried myself from not tinking, tried holding back my tears, but it juz didn't work.. walked away from the group.. mas n fad tried finding out wat was wrong.. i cudn't bring myself to talk abt it.. so i didn't tell them anyting.. reached the chalet soon after dat...

i sat alone at a bench, listen to my beloved mp3.. tot of talking to mas.. but he was lying down, so i assumed dat he was asleep n so didn't wanna disturb him.. then wan (superman) came over.. he started a conversation.. so we talked, n laughed till my stomach hurts.. we had a lot in common.. but now he's attached.. so dat was dat.. we also talked abt the most deepest ting.. he said dat i've changed, well he changed too.. ppl changed.. then, mas woke up n saw us talking, he tot mayb he shudn't disturb.. guess he noes dat i still haf a crush on superman.. he went to sit wit his frens.. then wan n shaf went home together.. soon after, mas's band members + outside frens wanted to go off.. so he did too.. while superman n my old fren, lolok, stayed.. dat was weird cos he said he wud stay until afternoon or sumting.. but anw, after they left, at ard 7+am, zahh n jonn left too.. after dat it was oni superman, lolok n me left outside.. cos my parents, grandma, aunt, uncle, bros n cuz went to sleep long ago already.. lolok can't take it anymore n so he tried sleeping.. cos the nite b4 he came to my party, he was working.. so dat explains his tiredness.. n sleepyness.. 1st he slept outside, then went inside when my uncle left for work n my grandma's awake n the sun was out.. leaving me n superman alone.. we talked abt lotsa stuffs.. asking me tis n dat, telling me tis n dat, which i shan't mention (if kavii or zahh wanna noe more, can always ask me.. if not, i'll b the 1 telling u guys.. lol).. ard 12+, the sun was too hot to bear, so we went in.. lolok was already on the bed below n my parents n the rest were up.. s soon s i touch the bed, i went to sleep.. tink superman went to sleep too.. dun get the wrong idea ppl.. he slept bside lolok.. i tink i did not reli sleep.. cos after abt 1/2 hr past, i heard superman saying dat if a bomb dropped n exploded, i'd still b sleeping.. instantly, i replied n said dat dat's not true.. him, lolok n my parents ended up laughing...

then we juz stayed in bed, doin noting except talking nonsense.. s usual for those who already noe lolok.. lol.. then we went to find sumting to eat.. then sumting happened, which i'll oni tell kavii n zahh.. so u guys, ask me in skul!!.. n then, we sat n played cards in the room together wit my mum.. then there were a lot of funny remarks made by lolok dat made all others laugh like crazy, even my dad, who rarely laugh n smile.. well, all i can say is dat my dad kinda like them both.. s in, my fren.. cos he knew them since long ago too.. ohh, u guys noe wat i mean larrz.. hmm.. mas said he'd b coming over.. but in the end, he didn't.. lolok n superman went back at ard 6+ - 7 pm.. haha.. so much for saying dat they wanna go off at 8am.. then during b4 midnite, i found out sumting which kinda ruined my mood.. which reli haf to b settled fast...

basically, i juz had a lot of fun.. wit my old frens who turned up for my party.. wit those who stayed overnite.. n the 2 guys who stayed wit me till evening the next day.. went home on 1st june, at ard 10-11 am.. my uncle, who drives a taxi, fetch us cos he understands dat there were many stuffs n ppl n taxis wudn't wanna take us in since we're all the way at the east n goin to the west.. then ard 3+ - 4pm, mas came over to pass me my present.. he sat n talked wit me for a while then left for his soccer practice...

i've got quite a lot of b'day presents from my frens n family.. here's wat i got...

- Levi's black canvas shoes, b.u.m Equipment's jeans, n Perlini's Silver's bracelet n ring
(jeeva n sebastian)
thank u guys.. i luv u guys so much!.. n wait, how did u noe dat it was the same exact 1s dat i saw n liked when i went window shoppin wit my mum??.. n wat abt my size, for both the jeans n shoe n ring??...

- a white handbag, Mango shirt, Roxy diary, Ripcurl lanyard, Billabong wallet, Paul Frank's flip flop
(ssjs, daph, claris, nes n yani)
i didn't reli remember daph telling me others who chipped in s well.. if i didn't mention ur name, im sorie!.. but thank u guys!!.. i luv u guys a lot too!!...

- a soft toy (which i dunno wat it's called)
(melany, shivvani, roziah n yulin)
thx for coming u guys...

- a pillow bear
(arthur n phupin)
thx for turning up.. i tot u guys wudn't come.. lol...

- a yellow small bear
(sukardi, faris n danial)
thx.. the bear's cute...

- Body's Shop perfumes

- brooches

- scarf n 2 bottles of small perfumes
(daud)
u guys may not noe him.. but anw, tho we only noe each other for a few months, we can click.. n thx for coming, tho u said u weren't coming.. lol...

- LED fountain n Moisturiser
(mama, natha n dan)
hee.. thx u guys.. n sorie if i didn't reli layan u.. but i luv u!...

- a small mouse n 2 sets of ehem2
(azy, kak fit, kak hannan n Zul)
i can't believe u guys bought tis for me.. haha.. but it's nice.. the colours.. n oh.. i like the small mouse!!.. so cute...

- Perlini's Silver's necklace n bracelet
(babe n family)

- Body Shop's Body Lotion Set
(Raiyan n Nadiah)

- Fox's t-shirt, Mickey Mouse's Bag n Necklace
(my beloved cuzzins)
thx gurls!.. i luv u all very very much!!.. we shall go out 1 of these days ya, to make up for the tak-terlayan moments...

- a heart-shape pendant necklace
(syafiq)
thx.. i luv it.. u've a gd taste.. (",)...

- OP's wallet
(aidil)
thx!!.. it's reli nice.. i can definitely use dat when i nid sum space.. hee.. n of cos, i juz like the colour.. black's my all time fav...

- A blue-heart pendant necklace
(masrezal)
thx.. i luv n appreciate it...

- Earphone
(superman n lolok)
thx.. i noe u guys noe i nid a new earphone.. lol.. so now i can listen to my mp3 w/o getting a sudden electric shock.. haha (",)...

- chocs
(my bros n hafiz)

- $$$
(sum aunts n uncles)

- $$$$$
(zahh n yani)
i luv u 2 sooo much u noe dat!!.. yani ,u too!.. for chipping in n then giving me another personal 1.. thx!.. oh ya!.. siisss!!.. we shall go shoppin soon since GSS is on now!!.. can't wait tho.. hee.. thx again!!.. muackz!!.. <333

anw, didn't turn up for dnt class cos i was reli damn tired.. n then dat david goh called me up n asked me to come to skul.. my dad talked to him n asked him to excuse me n xplain evryting.. then he said to my dad dat he's disappointed cos it's precious time bcos he's sacrificing it for us cos it's his wedding next week.. omg.. can u believe dat?.. he actually told my dad dat.. n my dad juz went, "oh.. reli?.. ok!.. congratulations!.. ya ya.. congrats!.. congrats!".. then he put down the hp n said, "there, settled!".. smiled, n walked off.. lol.. how cool is dat to haf him s my dad.. my mum too.. hee...

went for dnt class yesterday.. was late tho.. went wit jeeva cos he was at my house.. i wore my levi's shoe!.. cos i had to go to my aunt's hse after dat.. n i brought another t-shirt.. when i came in, kavii started talking to me like normal.. it was reli very funny.. well, yeah.. mayb she realised.. seriously, i haven told her anyting cos she vanished on mon tho.. but anw, we talked like normal.. exactly like months back b4 tis problem arise.. i reli enjoyed dat moment.. nes n yani were there too.. they had dnt wit alfred goh.. so we talked n nes kept on playing wit my "domino" pieces.. then we went home together.. nes walked, zahh went straight home, kavii, yan n me took the same bus to central.. met my mum n bros there.. so didn't go to eat.. went straight.. then, when we're abt to go in the mrt at JE station, tis bunch of dumd-ass chinese guys were pushing n shoving until my mum was fed up n blocked them from getting a seat.. but eventually, they did.. n it was bside my mum.. then there were gossiping abt us in mandarin.. like im stupid!!.. like i can't understand mandarin!!.. 1 of them understand malay, so he interpreted wateva my mum n me were talking abt to the guys sitting bside my mum.. i was reli pissed of lar!.. bloody hell.. so short, wanna stare stare.. my hands reli felt like giving each of them a gd black n blue bruise on their face.. lucky for them, i haf been practising on how to curb my anger.. n juz treat ppl like tis s if their crazy...

anw, these few days, been sms-ing superman.. it' reli weird, reli.. cos.. he already haf a gf.. but he still sent me sms-es dat.. u noe.. shudn't b.. for me.. it shud b for his gf.. yeah, mayb i dun reli understand.. but he dun too.. haiz.. it's hard to explain.. but anw, dat's all i hafta update abt the past 1 week which i didn't update.. upcoming stuffs wud b superman coming to my hse to chill, n the teen-x camp!.. till then, da-da!...