then, Mum n Dad dropped me off at Commonwealth mrt station..
n off i go to meet Khalis at Jurong East Entertainment Centre..
i reli wondered if i can teach him at all..
i mean.. dun they teach different tings in ite?..
but when i got there..
i realised dat we r studying the same ting!..
it's juz dat his is more elaborate?.. yeah.. n more detailed too..
after studying, we talked..
it's been a long time since i last met him..
then he said hanging out wit me is far better than hanging out wit Kak Soefie..
haha.. khalis, khalis..
after talking, we made our way home..
we parted at the interchange..
then i reached home..
n now relaxing n preparing to slack n then sleep...

n oh..
did i mention yesterday dat Zulfadli contacted me after 4 yrs+ of not hearing from him?..
yeah, he did..
he asked Raudhah for my no.. n he got it..
thx sis for giving him my no..
now, now..
the other day was azura, then zahari, now zul..
y does it seems dat a lot of my pri skul mates r back in contact?..
hmm.. one word..
cool...

hmm.. let's list the presents dat i got (in the order of the time i received it)..

From:

- Iskandar -

- A box of Ferraro Rocher
- A Card
(How did u noe i like chocs?.. they're my favs.. Thx a million.. n ur card => panjang lebar betul u tulis eh... =D )

-Aunts-

- $70
- Brooch + scarf
- A Hand Bag
(thx to all of u... ('',) )

-Yan-

- A Handphone Holder in a form of Tigger
(Thx kudut!.. i needed it.. heh =P)

-Julyha, Pris & Jurv-

- A 'W' brooch wit crystals on it
- Personal Letter (From July)
(Thx!.. i can add another brooch to my daily use.. im bored wit the brooch dat i use daily now...)

-Pris, Jurv, Bernard, KT, EJ, Shifu, Kee Han & Alvin-

- Wallet/Bag from Topshop
- A Sling Bag from The Wallet Shop
(Thx all of u.. i reli like it a lot!...)

-Kak Nadz-

- A Box of Stuffs From Cambodia
(Thx kak Nadz!.. it's reli nice..)

-Hadi, Hamudi, Salihin & Nicholas-

- A Brown Wallet from Billabong
- A Card (+ Razis)
(Thx for the wallet!.. u guys picked the rite colour.. no wonder always ask me wat colour is my fav.. lol ('',) )

-Razis-

- A Winnie the Pooh, uh, Round Puzzle? (i tink dat's wat it's called?)
(Thx for taking the time...)

-Khairil-

- A Necklace
- A Teddy Bear
(aaHHHH!.. i like the pendant tau!.. thx a lot!.. u even hafta change it for me cos of the defect.. n the teddy reli makes me feel like im 8 yr old again.. lol =P )

-Mama & Natha-

- A Pendant
(thx a lot!.. i din noe u'd still remember dat dolphin is 1 of my fav animals...)

-Irving, Kee Lin, Woon Chong, Jian Xiong & Choon Hoe-

- A Chocolate Cake
(Thx u guys!.. i like it very much.. very nice!.. cos it's choc.. heee)

-Shun-

- A Perfume
(Thx ya!.. i hope our friendship will last longer than the perfume ya...)

-Mummy's Family-

- $$$$
(im not stating how much for sum reasons.. thx Mum, Mama, Mak Su n Mak Tok... )

ok, so then after skul had MUA then i left to go meet my family at orchard..
ate at Lucky Plaza, along wit my grandma n small cuz..
then go watch sum street soccer match among under 19 n under 16 in front of Taka..
then went to eat ice cream at swensen's at Park Hotel..
n then head home..
n so now.. im soooo tired..
from all the fun n surprises u guys gave me..
anw.. gotta slam onto my bed n snore.. lol.. gd nite ppl!

N THX ALL FOR EVRYTING!.. I APPRECIATE IT LOTS!...

Most of them came at ard 6+pm..
Wan came earlier.. ard 2pm i tink..
then ard 5+, Nadhirah came..
soon followed by yan..
actually yan din wanna come in, but he was forced by my mum..
haha.. poor u...
then i waited n waited..
Kak Nadz n the rest says they were at clementi oredy..
but after a long wait, still no signs of them..
then Choon Hoe arrived alone..
we then waited for the rest..
by tis time..
my grandmas reached oredy..

then Bernard sms saying dat most of them not coming cos evry1 fought wit each other..
i was like.. wtf..
then Pris n Jurv came..
only the 2 of them..
then rite there on the front door they told me dat the rest not coming..
i was like y..
Jurv said they fought when they were at bugis n so evry1 not coming..
when i asked abt wat, she said she din understand wat they were fighting abt cos it was in chinese n her chinese is weak, which is true cos i noe..
but sumhow i felt like they were juz tryna play a prank on me..
then again.. their faces look so serious..
so i sms-ed Bernard and asked him personally..
n he reli said he's not coming n dat he's so sorie abt dat..
i was quite sad uh..
how cud they do tis to me..
THEN.........
Bernard n Kee Han were in front of the door!..
i was like..
wth!!.. make me sad for 2mins oni..
after which not long after KT reached too..

then after dat Kak Nadz, Hadi, Hamudi, Nicholas, Bi Wen n Razis got lost..
it was so funny seeing them turn the wrong corner thru my kitchen window..
ooops!.. sorie if u guys happened to read tis.. lol
n then they finally arrived..
like an hr after kak nadz sms-ed me saying they're oredy at clementi mrt station..

mama, Natha n her bf came too..
my other aunts n uncles n sum cuz came too..
then abg ri oso came..
he was kinda sick.. but he still came..
as for my pri sch..
korg gi maner??.. asl tk dtg seh....

but anw, the rest of the hrs was spent on laughters, talking crap, smiles, photo taking, eating, teasing, playing cards, etc..
it was all cool..
then Bernard n KT wanted to ton..
they asked me along.. but i said hafta see 1st..
n actually at dat point of time, they haven tot of where to ton yet..
then an hr later they asked me again..
but reli.. if i ton wit them, who was gonna help clean the hse..
tis was wat they said which made me smile.. "nvm.. we help ur mum clean up evryting 1st b4 goin lor.."
n they did juz dat.. dat was y i cud go ton-ing wit them..

they decided to go west coast park..
so we took our own sweet time, walking there s we talked n tease each other..
the 1st ting we did when we reached was climbing to the top of the pyramid..
i reli like the view from the top..
from up there.. i can feel the serenity n haf a peace of mind..
but anw.. back to wat i was saying..
oni Jurv, Bernard, KT n me went up..
Pris haf a fear of heights, or i tink she's scared dat she'll fall, dat was y she stayed sumwhere lower..
Choon Hoe din wanna climb yet cos he says he's tired..
after abt 10-15 mins, we got down n they went to play the 'swing'..
i din wanna play dat cos i got tired of it..
so i sat wit Choon Hoe n talked wit him while the rest played like crazy kids on the loose.. lol
then KT saw tis springy board ting..
so all of us, except Choon Hoe, got onto the board n start jumping..
then dunno y, Jurv starts being crazy..
she jumps while shouting n showing 'peace' sign on both hands..lol
then evry1 started a 'balance balance' ting..
it was so fun yet so crazy.. but we were all loving it..
lucky nobody got thrown off the board..
but Bernard got his face 'poked' by Jurv..n KT's n Pris's feet got stepped on by her oso..
then after Jurv got tired of screaming, we went back to the pyramid..
tis time evry1 went up.. we sang songs.. then KT said we all shud go n rest in Mc for a whil 1st..
so we went for toilet break..
i then got my sundae..
afterwhich we went relaxing on the pyramid again, but tis time, we lie down..
but in the end i tink evry1 fell asleep except for KT.. lol
tis is the result of having too much fun in the wee hours..

we made our way to my hse at ard 6+am, then after sending me, they took bus n went home..
i was oredy sleepy of cos..
i din haf enouf sleep for the past weeks..
but still.. i love ton-ing wit my frens.. *yawns*
n i tink today was a very relaxing day for me..
n tonite.. i confirm can haf a better nite of sleep..
cos tmr lesson starts at 12 for me.. yay! =)

RANDOM?...

I NOE.... lol

tis morning tho, i nearly miss my stop when i was in the mrt..
cos i was sleeping..
which was also oni bcos i din sleep the nite b4..
dun ask y..
haiz...

i reli dun understand...
i reli hope dat u'll tell me wat i did/said dat was wrong..
tis whole ting is juz killing me..
made me restless the whole day..
n then now u juz want me to forget all abt it since i cant figure it out myself..
wow....
like, after u said "Fuck u n have a nice day"...

n u still tink im pissing u off..

......................
thx anw.....

but anw..
i called shafiq up n ask if he wanna lepak for awhile..
so we meet up uh..
then he said he gonna lepak wit the rest too..
so i juz go oni uh..
at 1st there was oni me Fiq, me n another 2 guys..
1 i noe, the other i dunno..
then came Sakinah n another guy i dunno s well..
but subsequently i noe their name's lar..
the 1st guy is Wan, then the other is Din..
so we talked n crapped n stuffs..
then ayut came..
then suddenly the old stories came up..
we all laughed at Shafiq..
haha..
n bcos of dat..
my bro n my cuz, who are suppose to fetch me from the bus stop..
stayed n we ended up staying til 4am n reached home at 4.15am...

N IM STILL WONDERIN HOW THE HELL IT ACTUALLY GOT LOST....

anw.. had cca orientation juz now..
tis time is Make-Up Artist team (MUA)..
im like so glad dat im got in during the interviews uh..
n it was quite fun..
had ice breaker games..
n then there was a make-up n hair styling competition..
they oni gave us the theme, which is 'fantasy'..
but we weren't reli sure of wat they were looking for..
my grp's model was 1 of the best..
but i tink the reason y we din win it was bcos our explanations wasn't clear enouf..
but it was ok.. it wasn't reli a big deal..
after dat was the giving of extra prizes for those who wants to do sum random performances..
i was the 1st 1 uh..
i din noe y i volunteered either..
haha.. but wat i did was singing..
i sang N'SYNC's This I Promise You..
i tot my voice wasn't dat clear..
but they said it was uh..
then i realised..
it's bcos we were in the amphitheatre..
Zai was quite shocked..
honestly..i was, myself too..
like i said, i din noe y i volunteered..
but i was so glad dat it turned out fine n dat my voice din actually went out of tune like it always does sumtimes.. =)

so now..
i haf juz completed doin my communication skills's e-learning task for unit 5 n uh, i tink i hafta do the presentation..
n i can t even do my circuit board project ting which is due tmr..
cos im reli2 tired rite now n i reli2 nid my sleep..
but i dunno..
mayb i shud juz stay up another nite to complete evryting..
mayb only uh.......

.....i can't reli make out wat im feeling rite now....
....confusion probably.....
......sumtimes i reli2 like u....
.....sumtimes i dun tink i do.....

....im so tired tryna make tings happen...
....yeah, they all happens for a reason....
....who's not aware of dat....

....but im jaded by wat's been happening ard me.....
...i juz wanna run away to a place dat's full of peace n serenity...

When i tink abt the tings dat i've done..
i reli wish dat tings were much different than how they were..
broken frenships..
w/o a gd reason..
misunderstandings..
dat were neva cleared..
i realised dat these tings neva reli leave our minds even s time goes by...

Sumtimes i wonder if trust is reli the issue..
but i realised..
dat it's not juz abt the trust dat existed..
trust is juz an excuse..
once broken..
it's a reason to forget evryting dat we use to haf..
there were other tings dat reli affected us the way we were..
the way we act the way we did..
the tings dat were said b4...

Looking back, it doesnt make any sense to me now..
even after knowing wat seems to b the truth behind the whole lies..
im still the way i am..
void of any emotions..
not knowing how to react..
then again..
mayb i noe how to..
but i chose not to..
y, u may ask..
im not sure..
i reli m not sure..

wat i cudnt understand is tis..
We shared the happy times together..
bucket of tears..
the holiday..
sweet memories..
but evrytime it came to dat point where u were to choose..
u'll choose her instead of me..
heart-brokened s i was..
i neva reli let it show..
because it has always been dat way..
but still i din mind..
i was hoping dat u'd wake up 1 day n realised dat the person who u reli nid the most was by ur side all along..
but of cos, tings din turn out how i hoped it'd b..
u din noe..
i was scarred by wat happened..
wat i regretted the most was u not finding out the truth..
if wat i heard was the truth behind the whole lies..
wat happened had happened..
noting can change dat fact now..
n time n time again u open tis wound up n let it bleed again..
juz so u cud satisfy wat u needed to feel..
security..
dat's wat u've always needed..
mayb u're regretting it now..
but it dun matter..
s much s i want to change it..
it's all in the past..
n those memories..
they were all juz a once-upon-a-time kinda ting..
all u cud do now is remember..
cos dat is all dat u can do..
we'll neva make another memory like tis..
never...

Somebody save me from tis nightmare.. he's being totally weird n scary.. the tings he does.. he's like evrywhere im at.. i wonder if he's like actually following me or sumting.. i juz dun wanna tink abt it.. but i face him like almost evryday.. n wateva he's tryna do.. it's irritating me.. period...