On Fri..
it's working day..
i worked from 12-10..
actually it was suppose to be til 5 oni..
but my manager extend my hrs cos there was a short of staffs n it was a fri nite anw..
n friday nites r always the confirm-packed nite..
n surprisingly.. i wasnt a lil bit tired at all...
weird huh.. i noe..
then waited for Tina to finish work..
helped out a bit cos i reli wasnt tired n wanted evry1 to go home fast..
fast wasnt fast enouf tho..
evryting was done by 11.30+..
dat is late s store closes at 11pm...

after dat, i smsed Ayut n Sakinah n asked if they wanna lepak..
then they said ok..
so i took 14 to clementi n then 78 to west coast..
lepak wit them til 3+am cos hafta wait for Fiq cos he ends work at 3am..
then Ahmad bought 2 ben & jerry's ice cream pint..
n we shared.. Kinah finished the strawberry cheese sumting ice cream n i, the choc cookie sumting sumting ice cream..
it taste sooo gd dat i tink im gonna buy it one of these days too..
thx Ahmad.. for intro-ing dat ice cream..
tho dat was the 1st time i ever met u.. lol
then suddenly they decided to go wcp (it stands for West Coast Park, for ppl out there who dunno)...
so i juz go wit the flow..
n then we went to the bird sanctuary n sat there til dawn..
wait.. it shud b morning.. cos it was til 7+am..
then went home.. by now it's already sat..
n i haf another sleep over at wcp wit my dad's fren's family...

so i went back..
it was a nice walk back home..
it wasnt dat hot but very breezy..
i've finally realised the pleasure of waking up early to walk thru the morning breeze..
but anw..
my mum was quite surprised i was home dat late n still haf the energy after working the whole day yesterday n ton-ing the night b4 til morn..
as soon s i got home..
i hafta sweep the floor, clear the folded clothes..
waiting for my dad's fren's wife to come..
so i took my time n clean up..
then after which i went to haf a nap..

woke up at 1+ cos my mum woke me up saying dat my dad's fren's wife gonna reach soon..
so i was like.. ok.. we've been waiting since a few hrs ago..
n she's coming alone.. so, yeah..
well.. at least dat was wat i tot..
but then.. when she arrive, she came wit her 2 sons...
woah.. gd looking s well s well-build.. but the younger 1 looks fierce..
so i din talk much to them..
oni ans them when they ask me sumting..
then the 2 of them helped out too..
but wat i din expect was her younger son helping me out wit the veg..
haha.. the most unexpected part..
then set off to wcp at ard 6+pm like dat..
i was at home still cos i havent iron my clothes n stuff..
then i walked to wcp slowly...

reached there nearly 7..
i was wearing tudung..
then the both of them looked at me like i was sum1 who's lost or sumting..
then i sat comfortably on the mat..
then i realised sumting..
the younger brother look very familiar..
so i told my mum like on the spot..
n he said the same ting too.. like he've seen me sumwhere b4..
then i was like.. ok, i wasnt imagining it or anyting.. it's true we've seen each other sumwhere...
then tings started to make a lil progress wit communication..
we cud talk to each other better..
with the older 1 too..
the 1st abg's name is Farid, then the younger 1 is Sharil..
funny ting is.. the adek, who looked fierce, was the 1 who talks a lot n like to joke ard..
the older bro had to go sumwhere for awhile..
so left the younger 1 wit my bros n me..
we played cards wit him, drank n ate...
laughed n crap n he like to tease me a looottt...
izit reli fun teasing me huh?..
then after which my brothers challenged him to climb the pyramid..
he let my bro go 1st.. then he started..
he climb from the outside like spiderman..
it was so fast dat i tot he was juz jumping from...
hmm.. actually.. i oso dunno how to explain.. haha
we continued playing cards while talking generally..
abg Farid still hasnt come back..
then take random photos..
but no grp photo.. weird rite..
then at last.. abg Farid came back..
it was his turn to go play wit my bros..
so i went cycling wit abg Sharil..
then when cycling..
we started talking abt a lot more..
actually.. he started talking a lot..
then we go cycle round n round n round wcp almost 5 times..
until my bro's tried to catch up wit us..
we raced n tried to hide sumwhere behind bushes.. but i failed uh..
cos my bros spotted me.. haha

by the time we got back, Mama n Papa, + my mum oredy slept..
not surprised tho..
then the whole night, again, i din sleep..
stayed up talking to them plus Ilham..
then Mama woke up n we went off to Mc to get sum hot drinks..
then it was almost dawn..
so we started packing up stuffs.. n preparing to go home (my hse)..
i ride the bike home..
wit abg Sharil n Ilham n Ilyas..
i was still quite energetic..
but not til i reached home n then sat on the couch..
i finally feel the tiredness creeping over me..
so i decided not to go to work..
n watched my dad's takraw match..
abg Farid left n abg Sharil noes dat he's not coming for the match..
n actually abg Sharil had to go to sum competition..
but in the end, he decided to stay n layan his adek instead.. which is me!!...

my dad, Papa n his fren lost the takraw match..
but still.. we all had fun together..
after the match, we all went back to my hse again to shower n relax for a while..
then Mama, Papa n Abg went home..
dat was when.. i crashed into my bed!..
woah!.. the feeling.. so comfy!..
i woke up oni at 7+pm, ard maghrib..
n i was like awake.. very awake...

n then i realised................
shit!...
i haven revised properly for math common test tmr....
so i took 1 last chance to 'revise' n sleep at ard 1am..
i woke up today, exceptionally fresh...
mayb owing to the fact dat i slept knowing dat i found 2 older bros..
which is sumting dat i've always wanted...

i had 1 close bro dat i treated like my own n noting more..
dat understands the position n situation i was in back then..
but he sumhow pulled away..
n til now..
i've never heard the word 'adek' coming out from his mouth, calling me as he used to..
i miss the times he gave in to me..
i miss the times he'd pamper me..
i miss the times dat he tries to comfort me..
i miss the times when he used to stand up for me..
i miss the way he calls me 'adek'..
i miss the way he made me feel more important than any1 else..
i miss evryting abt him n the tings he do..
all in all..
i juz miss him...
a lot......
a lot more than any1 cud ever imagine.....
he was the 1st ever so real brother i had..
n he slipped away..
juz like dat..
leaving me not knowing y..
hanging n wondering......
til now..
mayb im still hoping dat he'll sumhow call me 'adek' s he used to..
but sumhow, sumting deep inside me tells me dat it's not gonna happen..
it's never gonna happen..................

other than just skul stuffs..
i've been bz wit work..
like, finally! i can go back to work..
$$ for next month...
it is crucial...
in order to catch movies n goin out n lepak-ing...

n woah..
after a bz week..
i realised dat..
i missed quite a lot of tings..

to the person who's feeling like he messed up, u shud stop feeling like dat..
it wasn't ur fault..
u cant tell her heart wat to do..
she has a decision to make..
n she made it..
n noting else cud haf convinced her otherwise except her heart..
so chill..
i hate it when u feel like tis evrytime..

n i also realised dat..
sum1 nids a listening ear n a shoulder to cry on..
u noe who u r..
like i said..
u haf my no..
anytime u wanna talk, beep me aite..
pour out ur feelings, voice out ur tots to sum1..
u'll feel better, trust me..
n if it has to b me, i'll gladly listen...
dun tink too much aite...