2:58 AM
... n im counting down the days til then..
11:11 PM
n i was, as usual, late..
n worst part is..
i forgot my class room, AND, none of my frens's hp has network coverage at sat point of time..
darn BLK S..
but anws.. the lecturer called n i din ans..
i managed to finish up on soldering the batt n speakers..
wit the help of Razis..
who also helped me in completing my DE project last week (thurs)..
he has been sucha great help..
thx a lot buddy...
N yes, i noe.. after wat seems like a long time..
i finally got back to work..
tho it's in a different outlet..
there wasnt much of a difference..
except for the envioronment n ppl there...
hmm.. let's see..
Syamim wasnt working..
n i bet.. he haven been for a long time..
fuad was working, in fountain (means making the ice cream n beverages)..
kak ida not working, off..
so there was Sir Azlan n Mdm Kelly, whom i never saw before..
Guan n Irsyad.. (malas nk include the 'sir')
Iza n Ibrahim, n another 2 chinese ppl, Glenda n Qi Wei...
so the 1st day of work was gd..
but obviously tiring..
bcos it's been quite a while since i last stand for hrs..
my legs were a bit sore..
n now.. *yawns*
im soo sleepy..
n i dun tink i'll wake up tmr for CI n DE lecture..
Ci tutorial, depends..
hmmm.....
11:39 PM
1 more date?..
i can gif him dat..
but he gotta face it..
it reli wun make any difference anymore..
noting he do or say now can change my mind..
n the feeling's barely there anymore...
all i can say to him is..
i hope he understands n..
im sorry..
dat feeling i haf had for him 4 yrs ago, which comes n goes..
juz faded for him a few months ago..
n there's noting i cud do abt it..
he changed.. i changed..
evryting's changed...
11:48 PM
went to Ayer Rajah Food Court to eat..
tho there was food at home..
it was some kinda celebration..
for wat.. i seriously dunno..
so juz went.. (i was actually very lazy to go cos i din feel like eaing out)
but then.. when we were there..
there was soo many tings dat i wanna eat..
very surprising..
so i ate Indian rojak, satay, a lil bit of kway teow kuah, n ice kacang..
i was feeling very bloated after eating..
decided dat probably walking home (1/2hr-45mins) wud help digest food quikly.. heh..
so walked home wit Ibu n Ilham..
was a very nice walk..
they surroundings were quite serene, except for the traffic..
the night was breezy..
it's bee a while since i last felt tis kind of peaceful-ness..
not counting the fact dat my mum n bro was there wit me...
so now..
after all the delicious food n calming walk..
after the headache-game dat kai intro-ed..
i shud probably go to sleep..
madrasah is on next morning..
nitez to all...
ps: oh oh.. n nutella is addictive.. heh =)
3:57 AM
1:26 AM
... to say dat evryting's fine than to admit dat noting is rite...
... to talk n make noises than to stay shut n silent...
... to advise sumone than to take advice from sumone...
... to pretend to b happy than to show u're not...
... to smile than to sulk...
... to dream n fantasize than to b in the real world n face reality...
... to run away from evryting than to stay n try to fix tings...
10:08 PM
i dunno y..
but god knows how many times i re-read them over n over again..
n evrytime i read them..
it only gets harder n harder to breathe..
n i juz dunno y...
mayb there's so much dat i CAN say..
but i guess sum tings..
r better left unsaid..
mayb there's much to QTN..
but do these qns get answrd?..
not all qns have ans..
not all qns can b answrd..
a lot of qns leave ppl to wondering n pondering over it...
4:42 AM
happy new yr to all..
hope u guys had a nice celebration n started the yr nicely... =)
hmm..
skul's starting for a lot of students..
so here comes the new resolutions, blah blah blah..
i never reli had resolutions..
n even if i did..
i dun rmmbr sticking to it anw..
so i'll juz wish for future happiness, gd luck, more learning experiences, n all the other stuffs dat any1 cud ever wish for..
Last but not least..
a smoother journey ahead for me...
11:47 PM
