yeah.. i noe.. i haven been updating.. cos im too bz tryna solve problems.. 1stly, was abt zahh n kavii.. cos kavii got angry at me for.. hmm.. dunno wat.. n then zahh started being emo.. n yeah, wateva dat's been happening in class to my kor.. im sorie kor!.. but he gotta noe dat sum1 else dat's close to him planned it too..n while the other person planned it wit god-noes-wat intentions, my intentions were gd.. even though i noe it kinda freaked him out a bit...

anw, apart from tis.. my usual prob.. my darl.. i seriously feel like giving up oredy.. but much s i want to, i luv him too much to actually let go completely.. u sistas n guys out there who's close to me shud noe wat i mean.. especially jon.. my another kor who's been counselling me.. lol :p.. counselling sounds so serious.. but seriously, i dun tink i can hold on much longer.. if my darl's not gonna do anyting abt tis, i dunno wat i'll do.. mayb i'll juz break down.. or mayb.. worst than dat.. haiz.. yeah yeah.. i noe u guys will say dat he's not worth it, blah blah blah.. but u can't expect me to juz let go of sumting which i haf been treasuring for the past.. let's see.. 1 year n 8+ months.. rite?.. i mean.. even if i were to let go, i still need time.. like they said.. time will heal evryting.. but of cos.. there's sumting dat i realised as i grow up.. time will heal evryting, but not completely.. the scars will still b there for s long s u live.. so no matter how far behind dat memory is in u, u'll still b reminded by it...