hey ppl.. i didn't post anyting abt yesterday.. well.. dat's basically cos there's noting much to update abt.. except dat my godsis gonna buy me a gucci envy perfume for my b'day!.. cos i overslept sumhow.. so i did not go to skul.. kinda cleaned up my wardrobe for clothes dat i can't wear n dunid anymore.. slept at ard 3+.. then came to skul tis morning.. nearly late, but wasn't.. in skul, didn't reli do much.. it feels gd to b back in skul after relaxing at home for 2 days.. then after skul, went to watch "over the hedge" wit zahh, kavii n yani.. nes n ian cudn't make it cos they had sumting on or sumting like dat.. we had a blast lar.. after watching the movie, went to eat at kfc.. n then yani was being a total.. hmm.. i dunno wat u call dat.. but he was juz being damn funny.. n weird.. so was zahh.. then unfortunately for me, on the way back.. i met sum ppl dat i dun reli want to.. ok, wait.. it's not dat i dun reli wanna meet them or anyting.. i miss 1 of them dearly actually.. but ting's haf changed now.. it's more complicated than eva.. umm.. kavii n zahh shud noe who im talking abt...

talking abt tis, i haf been tinking a lot abt it.. it seems dat fate is tryna bring us together n apart at the same time.. we had a crush on each other 3-4 yrs ago, w/o us even knowing it.. n both of us didn't noe where n how to find one another.. but dat's bside the point.. the last time i broke up, saw him at ginza mc wit his frens.. for 3 consecutive days.. but at dat point of time, he had a gf.. he saw me, n kinda remembered me (s he told me later on after he got my no.), but i guess, we both didn't haf the courage to go up to one of us to talk.. then, a month or 2 after dat meeting, i was attached.. n a month or 2 after i was attached, he broke up.. how irritating was dat??.. n all tis while, we hadn't talk to each other n didn't even noe each other.. but sumhow, last end of oct, he kinda got my no. from 1 of my old frens n started smsing me.. at 1st, i was quite happy.. but at the same time, sad.. cos im attached.. n i didn't wanna 2-time my bf (at dat time, yeah, he WAS my bf), even tho it's not reli literally.. but all we did was talked n got to noe each other more.. well, feelings grew between us.. but not to the point dat i'd call him my bf, cos i WAS attached.. when i realised dat i may neglect my bf, i started pulling myself away from him.. but in spite of all the tings dat i've been doing to get tings rite between my x-bf n me, i still lose out in the end.. now dat im single again, he's attached.. n it's only recently lar.. can u guys believe dat?.. i even saw him wit his gf.. guess guys reli change their mind faster than we gurls tot.. n basically, they juz dun haf the patient to wait.. but reli, i can't blame him, can i?.. i mean, he can't wait til dunno when for me.. in a way, im kinda happy for him.. s long s he luvs dat gurl, n she makes him happy...

but anw, apart from tis, there's sumting else dat im uncomfortable wit.. or basically, juz doesn't feel rite anymore.. yeah, i did say dat i had a lot of fun wit them (kavii n zahh) juz now after the movie.. but sumting juz feel outta place.. it's like.. the bond dat we used to haf between us, is fading.. it's missing sumhow.. i dunno if they noticed dat.. bcos i do.. n i felt it.. like, long ago.. even wit jon.. i dunno y.. mayb it's juz me.. but my feelings, intuition n instincts tells me dat, im not faking it.. n they neva fail to tell me the rite tings.. i mean, the tings dat im feeling rite now when im wit my dearest frens, juz doesn't seem rite.. not at all.. it's totally diff from wat i felt last time when we were reli reli close together.. it's almost the same s wat sebast always mention on his blog.. the oni diff between my situation n his is dat i dun feel outta place or anyting.. but it's juz tis feelings deep inside.. i dunno how to describe it.. n im not making any accusations or anyting.. i hope u guys out there won't misunderstand me.. but reli, sumting's missing between us.. we nid to fix dat sumting fast, b4 tings get worst n outta control.. tho i dunno wat dat sumting is at the moment...

haiz.. i reli reli hope u guys dun tink dat im talking nonsense or anyting.. mayb u guys shud take sum time off n tink abt tis too.. then mayb.. u guys will realise.. dat sumting we used to haf.. is missing...