When i tink abt the tings dat i've done..
i reli wish dat tings were much different than how they were..
broken frenships..
w/o a gd reason..
misunderstandings..
dat were neva cleared..
i realised dat these tings neva reli leave our minds even s time goes by...

Sumtimes i wonder if trust is reli the issue..
but i realised..
dat it's not juz abt the trust dat existed..
trust is juz an excuse..
once broken..
it's a reason to forget evryting dat we use to haf..
there were other tings dat reli affected us the way we were..
the way we act the way we did..
the tings dat were said b4...

Looking back, it doesnt make any sense to me now..
even after knowing wat seems to b the truth behind the whole lies..
im still the way i am..
void of any emotions..
not knowing how to react..
then again..
mayb i noe how to..
but i chose not to..
y, u may ask..
im not sure..
i reli m not sure..

wat i cudnt understand is tis..
We shared the happy times together..
bucket of tears..
the holiday..
sweet memories..
but evrytime it came to dat point where u were to choose..
u'll choose her instead of me..
heart-brokened s i was..
i neva reli let it show..
because it has always been dat way..
but still i din mind..
i was hoping dat u'd wake up 1 day n realised dat the person who u reli nid the most was by ur side all along..
but of cos, tings din turn out how i hoped it'd b..
u din noe..
i was scarred by wat happened..
wat i regretted the most was u not finding out the truth..
if wat i heard was the truth behind the whole lies..
wat happened had happened..
noting can change dat fact now..
n time n time again u open tis wound up n let it bleed again..
juz so u cud satisfy wat u needed to feel..
security..
dat's wat u've always needed..
mayb u're regretting it now..
but it dun matter..
s much s i want to change it..
it's all in the past..
n those memories..
they were all juz a once-upon-a-time kinda ting..
all u cud do now is remember..
cos dat is all dat u can do..
we'll neva make another memory like tis..
never...