I dun understand... Y u can't see wat i nid...
Dat's y u dun understand me...
There's lots of other tings dat i dun understand....
I dun understand y u must do all those tings dat u did n still doing...
Wat is left at home now is..
Wait.. I dun even sense home anymore..
Even if i feel it, it's like a home without u..
Evryting started falling apart the moment u started doin all those nonsense....
U might not noe..
Nor do u even realise..
How broken evry1 feels inside..
We might not show it..
Nor do we say anyting abt it..
But we do feel very hurt deep within...
Haiz..
I tried to keep all these feelings deep inside..
Anger.. Hatred.. Sadness.. Etc..
For almost more than a yr now..
I was void of any emotions..
I tried not to feel any..
It was the only way to keep me sane..
But now a lot of qns r getting to me..
Qns dat trigger these emotions..
N suddenly.. Im able to feel again...
Honestly..
I'd rather not feel..
When i start to feel..
The more i start to feel..
I feel all the pain inside..
The pain of the memories dat r not erasable..
The pain of missing lotsa ppl dat i used to haf in my life..
The pain... Just the pain i feel inside..
is enouf to make me insane...
4:06 AM
