indra n the rest confirmed the time to meet n where..
so s usual.. i tot i'll b late cos i was kinda lazy to wake up.. haha!
meeting time was 2pm at the bus stop opp. Kent Ridge sec..
i reached there ard 2.10pm..
n guess wat.. i was the oni 1 at the bus stop wit sum of the rest who were waiting for the bus n their frens..
so i waited while sms-ing in n mun.. hasri did say he was gonna b a lil late..
n so i was waiting.. til 2.15pm.. when Has finally arrived..
so i said.. " thk god u arrived.. cos i've been here alone, n the rest are still otw"..
then while has was complaining abt his gurl.. laila stepped out of the 189 which juz stoppped..
we were both surprised n since she wasnt meeting any1, n i was the oni gurl since nad cudn't come.. laila joined us..
so we waited til abt 2.35pm n then decided to go in 1st.. n coincidentally, laila din go back to sec sch either.. hmm....

when we went in, we saw cikgu zailena n talked to her 1st.. it was quite a long talk..
n she said i've changed.. haha.. more angelic now, last time devil in pri sch.. heh =)
but i still did told her.. im still a devil.. angelic a bit oni.. haha!
so was talking til 3+pm when all the guys finally came..
cikgu had to go, so we left n sat wit the boys (munzir, indra, hasri, syafiq, farit)..
the boys were waiting for their former form teacher, Mrs. Low who was bz talking to her other students, after which she came over n talked to us..
after the talk wit Mrs. Low, we went to find cikgu putri in the office..
cikgu was bz talking to asri n sharfina outside the office.. so we joined in..
talk, talk n talk, after which laila went to find her form teacher, Mrs. Tan..
then we all waited at the canteen for her..
bought drinks n evryting.. while crapping..
after laila n the rest were done.. mun wanted to take pics..
so we took it at the flag-raising pole.. haha!.. classic..
mun's cam.. wah!.. still film uh.. lol
remember to wash the pics for us kk?.. =P
after which, we made our way to the bus stop to go visit raudhah..
mun cant follow cos he had to go sumwhere.. so he went 1st..
so it was oni laila, has, syafiq, farit, indra n me..
we took 30 n after talking.. we reached in no time..

upon reaching.. we asked how she's doin n wat happened n evryting..
we talked non stop..
like.. there were soo much to talk abt..
n of cos.. there r lotsa tings to talk abt.. to catch up on each others' life..
while drinking n eating, we still talked..
we asked abt sum other fren who's not present..
n surprisingly.. none of us forget any long lost fren.. which im proud of.. =)
then came 7+pm.. the guys went to the mosque to pray.. n the gurls carried on talking..
after they came back, we continued talking..
n suddenly.. a topic abt ghost came out..
n so we talked abt ghost next..
we talked, crapped, laughed n evryting like we never had before..
n then it was 9pm.. it was all so fast.. n it was time to go..
laila took 240 to lakeside mrt while the rest of us took 30 back home..
along the way in the bus.. we did still talked..
dat is y i luv my frens.. we never run outta tings to talk abt.. =)

AND IM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT OUTING....!

Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21)

The Bottom Line
If a friend can't communicate what they want, that's too bad. You're no mind reader.

In Detail
If someone you care about has been acting oddly toward you, do not make any assumptions as to why they are behaving the way they're behaving. And by the same token, don't make excuses for them either. If they can't communicate their feelings or expectations to you, then that is their fault. You cannot take responsibility for it -- what are you, a mind reader? Nope -- which is why you shouldn't feel bad if they try to send you on a guilt trip. Don't go there!

Finally..
exams r over..
but i dun feel any difference.. reli..
afterall.. it juz is another boring day..
my maths paper was a disaster..
analog electronics was ok.. oni..
eletrical principles was oso ok oni....
but the passing part.. im not sure as yet..
today had computer programming paper..
it was not as bad as i tot..
thx for the last min tutoring guys (Is, Hadi & Razis)..
n the ting on the calculator.. it was useful.. hee =)
so after tis is juz holidays..
n im gonna work, work, work...
unless sum1 asks me out.. which i totally doubt so...

oh well.. so there r issues dat r not settled yet..
ok.. mayb not not settled yet..
juz dat.. noting's changed at all..
like.. apologising itself is not enouf..
i noe dat sumhow, im partly to blame n i realised dat now..
but in actual fact.. no faults r always caused by oneself alone..
one cannot bear all the faults himself..
there wud b other factors.. or person even involve...

n seriously.. im not satisfied wit ur reasons..
u kept quiet.. felt the way u felt.. ignored me.. u din even tell me wat was wrong..
n ur reason was.. u dun want tis ting to distract u from keeping ur focus on ur study..
like.. wat the hell was dat..??
did u ever, for a second, ever tot of how dat wud affect me?.. did u?
no, u din.. u din even care wat i felt.. all along.. those days..
y i continued feeling the way i felt.. not wanting to go skul n evryting..
i cudnt focus.. but did u care?.. no, u did not..
n now u dun wanna listen to my explanations, u wanna ignore me..
fine.. by all means.. do juz dat..
im soo used to these kinds of treatment..
these kinds of situation..
it's not the 1st time anw...

IM SORIE u cant accept me the way i m..
IM SORIE im not ur nerdy type of frens who pays attention during classes..
Who always attends classes..
Who always come to skul..
IM SORIE im not the rules kinda gurl..
IM SORIE im a rebel..
IM SORIE dat im an emo kid..
IM SORIE dat mayb im not the type of fren u were expecting to haf..
IM SORIE dat i haf too many probs goin on n i dun bother telling ppl abt it..
IM SORIE frenships wit n ard me never last as long as i want them to...

thx for evryting..
thx for the memories..
wat we haf then is juz another memory pictured in my mind now..
it has never lasted..
n i doubt it ever will....

so i wanted to go out..
N.. my bro had to follow..
i was like "wateva", n i juz let him do wat he wanna do outside..
he has his own life to lead anw..
he's 14 n u guys care so LIL oni.. so fine...

so went out wit abg farid n abg sharil..
met them at raffles city.. walked ard to shop..
cos they juz got their pay..
NS men lar..
got their pay oni, shop.. tsk tsk...
then went to eat..
then all those non-stop teasing n bullying me..
like im not used to it.. haha
then sat outside, abg sharil smoked for a while..
then decided to catch a movie..
so wen to PS instead..
when reach oredy..
dunno wat movie to watch..
n when decided, all selling fast..
so lil seats left..
haha.. they r sooo undecisive u noe..
guys nowadays.. *shakes head*
then abg farid said he wanted to go home instead cos he's goin out later at night..
abg Sharil straight away started nagging..
saying dat he was the 1 who wanted to ask all of us out then now wana go home..
n still owe him the sandals.. lol
so then finally, we ended up playing arcade..
while i was shooting n shooting..
abg sharil said to my ears..
"mama's in hospital uh"..
i was soo shocked.. dat i died instantly..
in the game i mean..

so the 3 of us left the game n went down to meet abg farid..
n i tot he left oredy..
then otw met woon chong..
after meeting abg farid, so we took the NEL to little india..
then walk, walk, walk... finally reached kk hospital..
after buying all the necessities..
when we reached kk, we still hafta wait for the last test result to confirm either the injection or the operation..
mama was admitted to the hospital..
she had to undergo an operation to remove the foetus, which is outside her womb..
can u believe dat??..
she's pregnant.. but the foetus is OUTSIDE her womb..
n they haf to remove it.. so sad seh..
so not long after, we went home..
then otw back home.. my bro n abg sharil crapped a lot..
make me laughed until i cannot stop..
haha.. sorie eh u hafta go back home in a cab..
after sending us.. lol

so now waiting for the sem exams..
which is sumting im totally not ready for..
n im getting sick of my blog skin..
tink im gonna change it soon.. but like.. very lazy uh.. lol
but anw.. finnaallyy got the 7th harry potter book from ABG hamudi.. haha
but not gonna read it anytime soon..
gonna wait for a time when i'll b reli free from anyting..
so dat i can concentrate on reading it all day long......

im pretty much tired nowadays..
very lethargic..
no motivation to do anyting..
or tink abt anyting..
n my face, currently painful from the sunburn i got on sun..
now it's peeling off SLOWLY..
making my face look verryyy.. hmm.. weird?

so i finished my hse chores...
haiz.. these days.. im like the mother in the hse..
it is sooo tiring..
but i tink my bros like it cos they can go out n i wun b calling them evrytime..
or ask them to run errands..
except when i feel like eating ice cream.. hee..
i seriously nid a break..
i wanna go out!!..
i wanna haf sum fun!!..
so waiting for tmr.....

Y is ur facial features still etched clearly in my mind?

Dear boy.. I hope u noe the way i feel abt u...

ok.. n so there were a lot of guys.. ranging from 12-20++ cos of under 20s n men's open..
not much of a big deal.. a lot of mats wit tattooed body.. tsk tsk..
pretty much ok-looking guys i guess..
then saw mariam..
she's supporting her classmates or sumting..
too bad they din get thru the 1st 2 knock-out rounds.. both teams..
anw.. i wasnt scanning much for cute guys..
cos i figured.. most wud b either tattooed or smoking ones..
i oso saw ciko..
the guy who was 1 of the top finalist in anugerah 2005..
n i hafta tell u..
the organizer for tis event was like @!%$^@!#^#&^% !..
no food provided..
no drinks provided..
n all of the teams paid like $100++ for tis..
can u believe dat?..
sooo teruk!...

but anw, after much fuss, we decided to concentrate on the matches instead of blowing our top off..
was suppose to go out wit abg sharil..
but by the looks of it..
chances very slim when my dad asked y not go wit evry1 later..
n i went like.. wth man..
n so i was watching 1 of the games by tis particular team..
when i suddenly noticed..

those smiles..
those dimples..
those eyes..
his jaw line..
the way he walks..
the way he tries to stabilize his breathing by walking round n round..
the way he dries his sweat..
i juz cudnt help it.. but stop n stare..
he's cute.. handsome.. hot.. charming.. sweet.. n all that other traits, at the same time..
never haf i felt tis way when i look at a guy b4..

i told kak mariam n my mum abt it..
she tinks dat he's not handsome at all.. ok oni..
but when i asked my mum abt wat she tinks, she tinks he's gd-looking too..
see.. i wasnt the oni 1 who tinks so..
i wanted to noe his name..
i wanted to talk to him..
i wanted him to look my way..
lol.. crazy u might tink.. i was..
in broad daylight.. early in the morning..
i was crazy..
i cannot keep my eyes off him..
except, of cos, when i tink he noes im looking..
n i hope dat no1 there actually noticed me staring, except for my mum...

but subsequently..
tings happened..
thx to Farhana (remember to ask me out play soccer okie!)..
not long b4..
we were talking..
then teasing n stuffs..
his team mates were all easy-goin n friendly..
of cos.. my mum jump start evryting too..
lol.. reli thkful..
then we were cheering for his team..
they cheered for my bros team too..
we had a gd time..
all of us..
then both our teams got into finals..
but too bad.. luck wasnt wit us..
2nd place it is..
for both...

b4 i knew it..
it was oredy evening..
i dreaded dat time..
but the fact dat not all is lost, i managed to maintain myself..
we bid each others' teams gdbye after evry1 received the prizes n changed...

after dat, all my bros, my mum n the team players were very hungry..
went to AMK banquet to eat..
after which, the boys went ard AMK to walk2 n see2, while my family went home..
we were seriously too tired to walk ard anymore..
after the lack of food n drink..
so now im at home, posting abt tis whole day's event..
n abt to turn in..
nitez evry1... =)

PS: Oh.. I forgot to add in.. I tink he's attached....

So anw...
i went out wit mama n papa today..
together wit my mum..
tho i felt dat she shud haf juz stayed at home or sumting..
cos she's been like tagging me everywhere i go..
soon it'll b to campus too i bet..
juz the tot of dat makes me shrugs..
but back to wat i was talking abt anw..
went to expo..
juz to get into a fight wit the salespersonS..
it was a bit complicated uh..
hard to explain how the fight started..
then we ended up not buying anyting or walking ard further..
cos evry1 was fuming mad..
the adults i mean..
n papa had to go to work..
so mama, my mum n me went to town..
waited for abg sharil to come after work..
so while waiting, walked ard at tangs..
mama shops for perhiasans..
then we ate ayam penyet together wit abg sharil..
after which we go take our time to PS to eat ice cream!..
at swensen's..
it wasnt dat packed, surprisingly..
after eating lots n lots of ice cream..
we went to sit at the entrance of PS, in front of cafe cartel..
n talked away..
while my mum was talking on the phone wit my aunt..
after which we went home..

n here i am now..
on my bed..
typing tis post..
n im gonna go sleep now..