I cud have justified my actions...
But i just cudnt...
I cudnt explain to u...
Im not sure if i cudnt or i just din want to...
Somehow...
I'd rather be the ungrateful brat that u've always thought i was...
I hope u're happy....
7:45 PM
I took a look ard me...
Looking at Boify's life...
Looking at mine, especially...
Even thought right now everything's still a mess...
I realise that i've grown much much more that i ever thought i wud in a short period of time...
More disciplined.. More punctuality...
Less stressed up over things.. Less irritated...
Much much more patience...
Making sound decisions...
Being much more independant than before.. That's the most important...
These, are priceless, compared to what schling wud have taught me...
Yes, in other words, i am pretty proud of myself...
To be able to stay alive this far...
To be able to survive...
To manage myself without much help...
Without having to rely too much on others...
Maybe i probably shud go back...
As many have already advised me to...
But maybe i just dun want to...
I really just cant take the fact that after all these months...
He is still not letting his ego back down for a bit...
And things haven taken much turn to being normal...
It's become more abnormal than ever...
His thinking is way too screwed up...
How can i ever respect him again...
Maybe this is the wrong thinking...
But it's just me...
If nobody ever stand up to him, he'll forever think that he's right in every single thing he does...
Believe me...
Im sorry, mother...
But i just can't do it...
1:48 PM
